SuicideFuel A dream I had

[Randy Bull]

My dream was about me going back through my mind to retrieve memories as some sort of quest. Except, these memories were completely different than my actual life experiences. I went through memories of being best friends with chads that bullied me, getting my first girlfriend, being popular, going to parties, etc. I was really enjoying myself, then I woke up, realizing that none of this actually happened. The realization is that this is what I would've become had I just had better genetics hit me like a brick. Normally I wake up pretty easily, but I sat in bed for a solid five or so minutes just reflecting on how life would've gone if I just wasn't ugly.

I can't escape the feeling of losing at life even when I'm asleep. It's over forever

 

[Truefaitholdorder]

I had a dream couple days ago where I was back in highschool , 8 years ago and in a classroom seated next to this girl and we were sitting close together,bodies touching.She apologized for how badly she treated me before kissing me.There was also another female classmate by my side fondly talking to me and I felt so warm and loved.Than I woke up and remembered that these foids were absolute fucking bitches to me back than and I'd rather gut her alive than ever come close to kissing her.

I was disgusted about what i dreamt of and wondered why I dreamt of this in the first place,perhaps deep down it has always been an unfulfilled desire by me to be loved and accepted by those who have hated me.

 

[PLA1092]

Brutal; your mind perhaps refusing to accept the absolute certainty of your life being such a failure all simply stemming from genetic physical unattractiveness, searching for a reality in which such did not happen...

This is truly the state of subhumanity in the modern world; hypergamy, acceptance of moral degeneracy, and foid privilege makes it fully acceptable for discrimination against us, in regards to the usual negative treatment and contempt, social isolation, Chad-worshipping, and subsequent effects on confidence/social skills and such, while foids claim to be the ones oppressed and subjugated through their own self-victimisation even though the bluepilled hegemony of elites and corporations fully enable and support foid privilege and the average sub 5 male's actual subjugation...

Such is the nature of Chads and foids; they've lifemogged you every step step the way, no matter if newborn, toddler, prepubescent, teenager, adult, or senior...

They will experience every stage of your life, simply with a million times more desirable genetics making it much better then you had ever it; Chads with how foids treat them, the halo effect, and overall how being attractive has positively reinforced their entire life, and foids with their typical privilege, and hypergamy plus the current treatment of men with their standards benefitting them.

 

[Randy Bull]

I had a dream couple days ago where I was back in highschool , 8 years ago and in a classroom seated next to this girl and we were sitting close together,bodies touching.She apologized for how badly she treated me before kissing me.There was also another female classmate by my side fondly talking to me and I felt so warm and loved.Than I woke up and remembered that these foids were absolute fucking bitches to me back than and I'd rather gut her alive than ever come close to kissing her.

I was disgusted about what i dreamt of and wondered why I dreamt of this in the first place,perhaps deep down it has always been an unfulfilled desire by me to be loved and accepted by those who have hated me.

I wouldn't be surprised if there is some sort of mechanism in the mind to try and counteract the loneliness IRL with dreams, but it doesn't really work out the way it's supposed to

 

[Emba]

Whatever you say Rev King.