Deleted member 8353
Former Hikikomori, Aimless Pleasure Seeker
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While I've seen this sentiment here, normies also say similar things.
What they don't seem to get is that just because you're not trying right now, doesn't mean that this was necessarily the case in the past. Sure it's true that I've been rotting for years, and that I certainly wouldn't expect a foid to be willing to give me a chance in my current state. However I used to try my best, and I eventually became so obsessed with my appearance that at the time I probably could've been diagnosed with an eating disorder. Ultimately nothing worked, and ugly face+crippling anxiety+a decade of bullying=beyond over, my face is enough of a problem by itself.
I have no reason to believe that anything would change if I tried to improve my life, in fact that's why I initially gave up on even attempting to be functional. Why would I slave away doing something which I don't enjoy, dealing with people which I typically hate, just to come home and rot in loneliness anyway? It was this failure to perceive a desirable reward which led me to essentially give up on life in the first place, and if I could will it to go away, then I would've done so already. Moreover, I've since come to despise people in general, and no longer really have the desire for a relationship with a foid in the first place. Although it's a shame that doesn't resolve really any of the associated problems with inceldom though, nor does it make my sex drive disappear either.
It's funny because I actually wish I could call myself volcel, I even coped for a while that I was MGTOW, but ultimately I knew that it wasn't really true. I didn't choose any of this shit, I simply reacted to the situation I was in.
What they don't seem to get is that just because you're not trying right now, doesn't mean that this was necessarily the case in the past. Sure it's true that I've been rotting for years, and that I certainly wouldn't expect a foid to be willing to give me a chance in my current state. However I used to try my best, and I eventually became so obsessed with my appearance that at the time I probably could've been diagnosed with an eating disorder. Ultimately nothing worked, and ugly face+crippling anxiety+a decade of bullying=beyond over, my face is enough of a problem by itself.
I have no reason to believe that anything would change if I tried to improve my life, in fact that's why I initially gave up on even attempting to be functional. Why would I slave away doing something which I don't enjoy, dealing with people which I typically hate, just to come home and rot in loneliness anyway? It was this failure to perceive a desirable reward which led me to essentially give up on life in the first place, and if I could will it to go away, then I would've done so already. Moreover, I've since come to despise people in general, and no longer really have the desire for a relationship with a foid in the first place. Although it's a shame that doesn't resolve really any of the associated problems with inceldom though, nor does it make my sex drive disappear either.
It's funny because I actually wish I could call myself volcel, I even coped for a while that I was MGTOW, but ultimately I knew that it wasn't really true. I didn't choose any of this shit, I simply reacted to the situation I was in.