There's no recovering from something like that, I think there are certain instances of rejection that really shake you to your core and cement the black pill in your mind, its like it changes something in you and from that moment on you "know your place"
Mines wasn't as extreme as yours but I can remember it well and I'll never forget
There was this girl I tried to get close too, its when I was still in university
We were solving some math problem together and I tried to place my hand on her lap and she kind of lunged back, and this was a girl who I considered it as "dating down", it was during a phase where I though - "well there's no way I can fail if I date THIS down right?" (WRONG)
I thought of the usual excuses to cope like abuse from a boyfriend, abuse as a child, etc, and maybe these were true (I don't know her life), but I've face so much endless rejection one after the other I think occam's razor makes more sense here, the most straight forward and obvious reasoning is the case, I just wasn't attractive enough to not get that kind of response
After that I was pretty much shattered tbh, because then it REALLY SUNK IN that I would never get laid, no woman would want me, and I would have to go lower than low and even then I might still fail. The juice didn't feel worth the squeeze at that point, I stopped approaching after that, started to focus on myself, on wealthmaxxing, on escaping my current life and the limitations of being a man who isn't wealthy, that's the only way to escape this sick game and find freedom as an incel
