autistic
I'm a genuine schizo
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- Joined
- Sep 8, 2022
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I started microwaving water bottles and hugging it because the warmth gives me comfort in my life, I started out just taking hot showers but it just wasn't enough anymore, I needed to actually feel like I was hugging someone.
my entire life feels... empty and unfulfilled. I want to be able to have the things the normies have but my severe depression and anxiety keeps my from leaving the house most days. I haven't even left the house in months, and I haven't left my room except to get food in weeks, it's almost as if I have been forgotten by society, I don't even talk to my parents anymore, I think they just forgot I exist, or they probably don't even care about me. I just want to feel the warmth of another person and the validation that they care about me, that's all I long for, I have given up in life but something within me still thinks there's hope.
I dont know if I should just kill myself or gaslight myself into believing that women would desire physical intimacy with me, I just want to feel some breasts pressed against me. Thats all I need is some genuine human contact and to feel loved.
I have never actually hugged the opposite sex except for my mother, she is the only person who is the opposite sex that I ever talked to. I never had a single friend ever in my life, nobody cared about me and I was bullied all my life. What the fuck do incels do? I feel like I have no place in society except continuous pain and regret of my life choices and decisions... I think its over for me I don't even want to embarrass myself by trying.
my entire life feels... empty and unfulfilled. I want to be able to have the things the normies have but my severe depression and anxiety keeps my from leaving the house most days. I haven't even left the house in months, and I haven't left my room except to get food in weeks, it's almost as if I have been forgotten by society, I don't even talk to my parents anymore, I think they just forgot I exist, or they probably don't even care about me. I just want to feel the warmth of another person and the validation that they care about me, that's all I long for, I have given up in life but something within me still thinks there's hope.
I dont know if I should just kill myself or gaslight myself into believing that women would desire physical intimacy with me, I just want to feel some breasts pressed against me. Thats all I need is some genuine human contact and to feel loved.
I have never actually hugged the opposite sex except for my mother, she is the only person who is the opposite sex that I ever talked to. I never had a single friend ever in my life, nobody cared about me and I was bullied all my life. What the fuck do incels do? I feel like I have no place in society except continuous pain and regret of my life choices and decisions... I think its over for me I don't even want to embarrass myself by trying.