Only you can answer that. You need to find your own purpose for living. We’re put here to experience life on earth, that's it. But realizing that none of this shit matters isn't just a curse, it's a gift too because now you have absolute freedom to do what you want without any belief system or social construct holding you back.
What really gets me is that despite the world not owning you anything, some bastard gets the lucky ticket and acts like the world is just part of his/her orbit.
This my friend has to change, for the best or for worse.
While most of us rot in our basements contemplating in solitude and regret, the outside seems like an absolute alternate reality where you see couples holding hands and overall maybe "faking" but it still etches that feeling that you can never belong in that dynamic, no matter how hard you try.
Being "social" has done nothing but leaving me personally ostracized, because they hate when someone that gives a different aura acts confident.
Originally, i was a very extroverted child, then forcefully turned into a introvert during adolescence through coercion and shaming.
This world is meant for you take it by the hand, and if you don´t, someone else will.
If you lack the tools which are not only exclusive to appearance, but an active father figure during your most important years in adolescence, you will be left a broken individual in a jungle full of mindless apes.
Even though, you didn´t consent to be thrown into existence.
The architect forgot to switch off the lights.
