I have a retard minimum wage job and my life is falling apart. I desired to be a computer scientist but turns out im too lowinhib to concentrate at uni and I wasted years of my life trying to go back and forth, gave half exam once and that’s about it.
I will be 24 in 2 weeks and Im risking to lose my Job cause even tho Ive a permanent contrat theres gonna be a transfer of a branch and I will get to work under another employer who pays less and asks for more. Im considering quitting but I dont have any other choice.
I wanna try to learn shit again but I don’t know what’s useful anymore, I searched for some ML books but there’s always some prerequisites or it just misleads u to outdated things, like I wanna learn whats currently happening behind the curtains of OpenAI, FAANG, Tesla, but Im just an italian inept who didn’t attend any college. I will never compete with someone that paid thousands for a top university, nobody is gonna care to hire me, there are 10yr old prodigies and I spent my entire life on the bed, it’s over.
But I wish I could “Johnny Silverhand” the thing and keep resisting in the years to come by doing my own thing, and maybe, help the Incel resistance. More generally, I wanna serve the manosphere since corporations are leading towards the annihilation of lonely man. Incels, neets, outcompeted, defected male individuals are deemed as parasites like secular Jews were and need to be exterminated cause we represent a threat to careless consumerism and obedient citizens.
I don’t know what to do but I just wanted to tall about it with you. Stay strong fellas cause Im trying the same rn, the weight is crushing me but I’m still standing.
I will be 24 in 2 weeks and Im risking to lose my Job cause even tho Ive a permanent contrat theres gonna be a transfer of a branch and I will get to work under another employer who pays less and asks for more. Im considering quitting but I dont have any other choice.
I wanna try to learn shit again but I don’t know what’s useful anymore, I searched for some ML books but there’s always some prerequisites or it just misleads u to outdated things, like I wanna learn whats currently happening behind the curtains of OpenAI, FAANG, Tesla, but Im just an italian inept who didn’t attend any college. I will never compete with someone that paid thousands for a top university, nobody is gonna care to hire me, there are 10yr old prodigies and I spent my entire life on the bed, it’s over.
But I wish I could “Johnny Silverhand” the thing and keep resisting in the years to come by doing my own thing, and maybe, help the Incel resistance. More generally, I wanna serve the manosphere since corporations are leading towards the annihilation of lonely man. Incels, neets, outcompeted, defected male individuals are deemed as parasites like secular Jews were and need to be exterminated cause we represent a threat to careless consumerism and obedient citizens.
I don’t know what to do but I just wanted to tall about it with you. Stay strong fellas cause Im trying the same rn, the weight is crushing me but I’m still standing.
