i woke up today, as i do every other day. and realized ive never had a "friend" that hasnt stabbed me in the back, lied to me, used me for their own emotional support, or lie to me about even the smallest things to change the way i view/interpret them.
is that really a friend if they do all of the above?
its not only that ive never had a friend, i've genuinely never had any iois that werent from gay and obese transgenders. those are the only people i attract, and we all know gay people have the lowest standards unless they're jordan barrett.
i cant believe for 18 years of my life, ive been alone. ive never had anyone call me during the summer, ask me to hang out. never had anyone text me as a matter of fact unless its for homework answers or some bullshit like that.
not only that, the only way for me to ascend in life is if i lost 60 pounds, and got 100,000 dollars worth of plastic surgery. how much do i have to wageslave just to look like a botched normie. which, by the way, id rather be a botched normie than what i am right now.
i might be the ugliest guy on the forum, ive seriously never seen something, or someoone as ugly as me. i truly am a genetic monster. why was i birthed.d
not only this, but i geomaxxed around 9ish months ago. i asked my parents to send me to hong kong, because with the blackpill being mainstream, i would have become an internet meme.
in america, people record me without my consent, i remember i went to a football game to socialmax. and this guy i usually talk to in class wanted to take a picture with me. and i wish i said no.
for the rest of the year, he showed that picture to 2 other people and i became an inside joke for them. and i told him that i was moving to hong kong, and the last thing he said to me was this:
"yo bro, i gotta show you something before you leave. a little memory before you go."
>proceeds to show me the picture of my face
>shows the guy sitting next to me
>laughs
thats the last fucking thing you wanna do before i go? ridicule me like a dog?
its not the first time someone took a photo of me and used me as an inside joke afterwards. this is it, this is why suicide is my only option. because no matter what people will always view me as a joke. my life is a comedy and im the main punchline.
why do people, why does EVERYONE treat me this way. even after i geomaxxed, people still walk over me? and ive been stepping my foot down most of the time. i know the answer to that question, its because of my looks.
i have the bone structure that requires me to be treated like a sheep for the rest of my life, thats one of the perks of being extremely ugly like me. i dont even care about getting a girlfriend or having sex anymore, i can die a virgin, i wouldnt care.
i just wish i was normal looking, average wouldnt hurt. im not even asking to be a fucking PSL god anymore. i just want normal, average looks. i just want to be able to take a photo of myself without almost attempting a suicide after, because i realize how fucking ugly i am.
im contemplating ending my life when i get back to the states, because im afraid my dad will yell at me after he realizes ive failed most of my classes, and havent lost the weight i promised to.
he'll end up kicking me out because of those reasons. and he'll yell at me and call me pathetic and all that for the last time before i do as well. if hes gonna kick me out, i hope he shuts the fuck up and lets me pack my shit and leave.
is that really a friend if they do all of the above?
its not only that ive never had a friend, i've genuinely never had any iois that werent from gay and obese transgenders. those are the only people i attract, and we all know gay people have the lowest standards unless they're jordan barrett.
i cant believe for 18 years of my life, ive been alone. ive never had anyone call me during the summer, ask me to hang out. never had anyone text me as a matter of fact unless its for homework answers or some bullshit like that.
not only that, the only way for me to ascend in life is if i lost 60 pounds, and got 100,000 dollars worth of plastic surgery. how much do i have to wageslave just to look like a botched normie. which, by the way, id rather be a botched normie than what i am right now.
i might be the ugliest guy on the forum, ive seriously never seen something, or someoone as ugly as me. i truly am a genetic monster. why was i birthed.d
not only this, but i geomaxxed around 9ish months ago. i asked my parents to send me to hong kong, because with the blackpill being mainstream, i would have become an internet meme.
in america, people record me without my consent, i remember i went to a football game to socialmax. and this guy i usually talk to in class wanted to take a picture with me. and i wish i said no.
for the rest of the year, he showed that picture to 2 other people and i became an inside joke for them. and i told him that i was moving to hong kong, and the last thing he said to me was this:
"yo bro, i gotta show you something before you leave. a little memory before you go."
>proceeds to show me the picture of my face
>shows the guy sitting next to me
>laughs
thats the last fucking thing you wanna do before i go? ridicule me like a dog?
its not the first time someone took a photo of me and used me as an inside joke afterwards. this is it, this is why suicide is my only option. because no matter what people will always view me as a joke. my life is a comedy and im the main punchline.
why do people, why does EVERYONE treat me this way. even after i geomaxxed, people still walk over me? and ive been stepping my foot down most of the time. i know the answer to that question, its because of my looks.
i have the bone structure that requires me to be treated like a sheep for the rest of my life, thats one of the perks of being extremely ugly like me. i dont even care about getting a girlfriend or having sex anymore, i can die a virgin, i wouldnt care.
i just wish i was normal looking, average wouldnt hurt. im not even asking to be a fucking PSL god anymore. i just want normal, average looks. i just want to be able to take a photo of myself without almost attempting a suicide after, because i realize how fucking ugly i am.
im contemplating ending my life when i get back to the states, because im afraid my dad will yell at me after he realizes ive failed most of my classes, and havent lost the weight i promised to.
he'll end up kicking me out because of those reasons. and he'll yell at me and call me pathetic and all that for the last time before i do as well. if hes gonna kick me out, i hope he shuts the fuck up and lets me pack my shit and leave.
