You lack focus and proper drive. You also don't have true love and support from you parents. I'm an old cell. And have been incel forever. But I had proper support structures, hobbies and drive.
Also, you probably eat very poorly. Don't sleep enough. Or sleep too much. I don't know. You probably were exposed to SSRIs or Adderal as a "hyper active" young boy and it further fucked your mental health.
I'd try:
-Getting really good at something. Then monetize it.
-Getting a hobby. For me, when I was 19, gaming was the ultimate. But it was also 2007, the greatest year in gaming history, and really as a young man, the game industry was the best era when I was that age. Gaming is shit now. There's also reading. I love reading. I've read all my life. I love escapism. I have an active imagination so books, specifically techno military thrillers or cyberpunk novels really get my juices flowing. I also like watching movies. All sorts of movies. I a bit of a film consiur. Even being poor I manage to get enough gift money for services like the Centurion Collection streaming and mubi. Also, if you have a local library card or our a student in college or university you can get a great movie streaming service called Kanopy for free. It's great.
-So I'd try, maybe a sport. I did sports all my life. And I miss doing them. I'd try basketball or boxing. Boxing is harsh tho, as even sparring can give you concussions. But being able to push through exercision while being concussed is something that truly forges you into a tougher man. But I love basketball. Always have. Always will. There's lots of sports. I've even tried Kayaking and enjoyed it. Tho the downtime is boring as shit and has to be including into something like camping or hiking or exploring. Which also can be fun. But very life consuming.
There's also violent and savage hobbies like hunting- specifically hunting with spears or recurve bows. Really getting in close and snuffing out the life of pretty little Deer or elk or whatever and smelling the blood and shit and seeing the fear it's it's little eyes as the lights go it is truly something. Lots of guys I know really enjoy violently murdering animals for sport. Give it try. It's legal. Hell in my state we even consider hunters good guys lol. About year ago I took my 22 mag rifle and just went out in the badlands and sniped me some Praire Dog heads. I reckon I got about 30 or 40 of the fuckers. Lots of merked praire dog scum. I felt great. I don't really hunt. But it is fun.
I here mediation is good. But honestly, to me it looks gay as fuck. Very soy and yuppie. I believe men should kill, compete, dream and compete. Mediation seems kinda a Foid thing to do. But I here it helps.
Get off the SSRIs. Stop doing drugs. Get sleep. Drink water. and do the above things or whatever. Good luck.
