I was like that before going to college and NTmaxxing and LowInhibMaxx for years. Now, even if all i can do is LDAR in isolation anyway, at least im not extremely anxious when i go to buy alcohol or weed (the only things i go out for and spend money on, now that i live again with my fucking parents). I had to force me to socialize so many times i just got used to the torture, and now im kind of used to it. Its not that i dont feel anxious, but at least i know what to do. I dont panic, i can mantain a conversation that doesnt sound retarded, i can smile if really needed.... i know most people know, even before talking to me, that im one of the weirdest guys theyve ever know, but who fucking cares. I dont really mind about rejection if its not a young foid.