Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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This is such a weird situation. My life has been so different from everyone else's, I've literally been isolating myself since I was a kid. If you think about it, such a thing has never happened throughout history. Even nowadays it's a rarity.And the weirder part is that this is how I chose to live. All I've done since I was ~12 was lock myself up in my room and rot.
I have blocked out of my mind a lot of things, and now that I look back, I really do have too many mental disorders, and since I was a kid they sort of piled up, cause more bad experiences and caused me to eventually isolate so much. And yet it was never diagnosed or addressed, never helped in this shit country of mine where you have to just get over it or get bullied, I never got any pity for it. I'm now a grown ass adult who is supposed to suck it up and act like an adult.
And now that I'm grown up I have learned to act normal, albeit quiet and reserved, and all the years of living like shit and suffering is unknown to everyone, not that they'd care, they'd just make fun of me. And I'm supposed to work be a normal member of society, while enjoying none of the perks of being part of a society.
I don't know, I guess everything that happened to me was my fault for being so weird and stupid. And I did choose isolation, no one forced me to do it. It's hard to think of yourself as mentally ill, but I guess there's no denying that I am.
I have blocked out of my mind a lot of things, and now that I look back, I really do have too many mental disorders, and since I was a kid they sort of piled up, cause more bad experiences and caused me to eventually isolate so much. And yet it was never diagnosed or addressed, never helped in this shit country of mine where you have to just get over it or get bullied, I never got any pity for it. I'm now a grown ass adult who is supposed to suck it up and act like an adult.
And now that I'm grown up I have learned to act normal, albeit quiet and reserved, and all the years of living like shit and suffering is unknown to everyone, not that they'd care, they'd just make fun of me. And I'm supposed to work be a normal member of society, while enjoying none of the perks of being part of a society.
I don't know, I guess everything that happened to me was my fault for being so weird and stupid. And I did choose isolation, no one forced me to do it. It's hard to think of yourself as mentally ill, but I guess there's no denying that I am.