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Intro: khhv, semi-volcel,currycel, gymcel, phimosiscel,non-mentalcel (kek, I'll explain), mgtowcope - content with life after blackpill.
My positive features: high intellect, wit, sense of humor, attract lot of people platonically, make a lot of money, live in the US.
Wanted to say hello to my fellow chutiyes since you'd understand me the best and I can't talk about this to anyone else in real life. I wanted to get my pathetic life story out to someone who wouldn't give me bluepill platitudes and advice. I'm mostly making this post for a catharatic experience.
I'm Indian and just like the US, you're a nigger if you don't have fair skin. I was literally blackpilled from a young age having the darkest skin in the classroom and among most of my relatives. India has colorism where a short guy with copebones but fair skin is considered better looking than a darker skin chad. Even my own father (fair skinned) always regretted my skin color saying that except for that I was the best thing any father could wish for.
I was the nigger every place I went - all insults directed to me were around my skin color kalia (blackie), ias (invisible after sunset), blackie, black body, karupu (black). Girls teased other girls saying that they'd marry me and they would react making barfing noise. All of this for the one "fault" of mine: having black skin.
Slowly my heart also turned black and I started verbally abusing everyone who fucked with me; I give no fucks. This was easy for me since I'm quite intelligent and almost sociopathic because all humanity left me growing up without affection from women (only platonic attraction due to sense of humor).
I left for the US for my masters thinking I'd finally get laid since women lose their virginity. Install Tinder. 0 matches. Uninstall Tinder.
I also learned that I have phimosis. I never knew this was a thing since I never got laid and porn shows cut people. Tried some stretching exercise for a while but didn't work. Finally stopped because no one would fuck me anyway. Who cares.
Struggled for a while thinking about arranged marriage. I knew since I was young I never wanted to get married since only an ugly girl would want me. I also didn't want children because they'd be ugly and relive my life.
Then I found redpill and started losing weight and gymcelling. But got bored because what's the point - no one wants me anyway. Found mgtow and then I finally got free of the arranged marriage mindset (in India they raise you to make you believe that it's an eventuality not a choice; finding like minded people who told me I didn't need to lift and not to marry made me realize I don't need to do anything else with my life). Then I found incels - the final level of truth and found that mgtow was a cope. I was actually incel all along - I would leave mgtow if any one showed any interest except for marriage which I will never do because I hate responsibility and children (Indians force you to have kids and don't want to deal with bride's family).
I'm at complete peace now: I have a lot of money and social life is mostly work. I'm so used to being alone that the thought of not being alone scares me. I think I'd rather have money and never worry about anything than a woman with whom I might or might not be happy. Even if one showed up right now, I'd probably not go for it because phimosis and I don't want my life to change after coming to peace with it (definitely no arranged marriage betabux and children - I can't do this to someone else and I shouldn't have even been born). My only fault is being born with black skin in India and even that's not my fault. Whatever I could control in life, I've excelled. Everything else in my life is perfect. I'm at peace with LDAR. Thank you for being with me my brothers in my final stage of enlightment.
My positive features: high intellect, wit, sense of humor, attract lot of people platonically, make a lot of money, live in the US.
Wanted to say hello to my fellow chutiyes since you'd understand me the best and I can't talk about this to anyone else in real life. I wanted to get my pathetic life story out to someone who wouldn't give me bluepill platitudes and advice. I'm mostly making this post for a catharatic experience.
I'm Indian and just like the US, you're a nigger if you don't have fair skin. I was literally blackpilled from a young age having the darkest skin in the classroom and among most of my relatives. India has colorism where a short guy with copebones but fair skin is considered better looking than a darker skin chad. Even my own father (fair skinned) always regretted my skin color saying that except for that I was the best thing any father could wish for.
I was the nigger every place I went - all insults directed to me were around my skin color kalia (blackie), ias (invisible after sunset), blackie, black body, karupu (black). Girls teased other girls saying that they'd marry me and they would react making barfing noise. All of this for the one "fault" of mine: having black skin.
Slowly my heart also turned black and I started verbally abusing everyone who fucked with me; I give no fucks. This was easy for me since I'm quite intelligent and almost sociopathic because all humanity left me growing up without affection from women (only platonic attraction due to sense of humor).
I left for the US for my masters thinking I'd finally get laid since women lose their virginity. Install Tinder. 0 matches. Uninstall Tinder.
I also learned that I have phimosis. I never knew this was a thing since I never got laid and porn shows cut people. Tried some stretching exercise for a while but didn't work. Finally stopped because no one would fuck me anyway. Who cares.
Struggled for a while thinking about arranged marriage. I knew since I was young I never wanted to get married since only an ugly girl would want me. I also didn't want children because they'd be ugly and relive my life.
Then I found redpill and started losing weight and gymcelling. But got bored because what's the point - no one wants me anyway. Found mgtow and then I finally got free of the arranged marriage mindset (in India they raise you to make you believe that it's an eventuality not a choice; finding like minded people who told me I didn't need to lift and not to marry made me realize I don't need to do anything else with my life). Then I found incels - the final level of truth and found that mgtow was a cope. I was actually incel all along - I would leave mgtow if any one showed any interest except for marriage which I will never do because I hate responsibility and children (Indians force you to have kids and don't want to deal with bride's family).
I'm at complete peace now: I have a lot of money and social life is mostly work. I'm so used to being alone that the thought of not being alone scares me. I think I'd rather have money and never worry about anything than a woman with whom I might or might not be happy. Even if one showed up right now, I'd probably not go for it because phimosis and I don't want my life to change after coming to peace with it (definitely no arranged marriage betabux and children - I can't do this to someone else and I shouldn't have even been born). My only fault is being born with black skin in India and even that's not my fault. Whatever I could control in life, I've excelled. Everything else in my life is perfect. I'm at peace with LDAR. Thank you for being with me my brothers in my final stage of enlightment.
