mlcurrycel
Marxist-Rodgerist
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If you had asked teenage me, I could have written paragraphs about how I loved my crush because of her personality. The way she carried herself, her gentle, calm, and demure demeanour, her bubbly smile, her feminine body language, the way she looked after others, the way she looked after family members, etc.
It was all a fucking lie.
I was subconsciously attracted to her because she had a pretty face, pretty hair, pretty voice, and was high-E (Estrogen).
I never saw her body outside our conservative school uniform, but checking her Instagram now shows she has a great lithe dancer's body.
All the other nerdy boys had a crush on her as well. When I found that out, I realised attraction might not be ordained by God or something. If God/the Universe/Fate is arranging who falls in love, why would multiple dudes fall in love with the same girl?
That's when I started my self-improoovement cope. The same friends who liked her and knew I liked her would help me and encourage me to improve and looksmaxx.
Guys are great, aren't they? Men make better friends than women.
When I realised my friends, who were lightyears ahead of me, were struggling, I realised there was no way I was going to succeed.
After being rejected by some other random women, I realised it was over.
I left the PUA cope and became a self hating male feminist for a while. But then I noticed that all the women were combining about being pumped and dumped, the inverse of TRP Chads bragging about it. That made me realised that a % of men really were living the TRP dream (because of their looks).
Eventually I went through the MGTOW cope to end up blackpilled.
It was all a fucking lie.
I was subconsciously attracted to her because she had a pretty face, pretty hair, pretty voice, and was high-E (Estrogen).
I never saw her body outside our conservative school uniform, but checking her Instagram now shows she has a great lithe dancer's body.
All the other nerdy boys had a crush on her as well. When I found that out, I realised attraction might not be ordained by God or something. If God/the Universe/Fate is arranging who falls in love, why would multiple dudes fall in love with the same girl?
That's when I started my self-improoovement cope. The same friends who liked her and knew I liked her would help me and encourage me to improve and looksmaxx.
Guys are great, aren't they? Men make better friends than women.
When I realised my friends, who were lightyears ahead of me, were struggling, I realised there was no way I was going to succeed.
After being rejected by some other random women, I realised it was over.
I left the PUA cope and became a self hating male feminist for a while. But then I noticed that all the women were combining about being pumped and dumped, the inverse of TRP Chads bragging about it. That made me realised that a % of men really were living the TRP dream (because of their looks).
Eventually I went through the MGTOW cope to end up blackpilled.