Venting Where my life is headed

[syrianman1]

Greetings,

I have been visiting this site for the past few months but haven't made an account up till now as I haven't had anything to contribute with up to this point. Please, allow me to share my story. You are not obliged to read and it might be a tad bit long.

I am a 19 year old male who had previously tried pursuing women but ended up miserable after every singular rejection, I wasn't sure why I was constantly being turned down as all of their reasons of "pursuing education" and "just not atm" never were sufficient as I'd find them orbiting more attractive guys days later. For the past two years, I've been a die-hard incel whose mind was eaten up by misogyny and self-hatred, I need not explain the reasons and intricacies judging by what I've read from you guys around here, you are far more experienced in deducing why a woman might reject me than anyone else. I respect the dedication to document everything you went through.

I'll cut to the chase, I am now at a crossroads between life and death. In 10 days time, I might not be alive to witness the replies of other members of the community on this post if it gets any in the first place, this is due to me not being able to pass my first year of medical school due to a lack of any prospect of a relationship with a foid. I have previously fooled myself into believing that with great success I'll be able to attract them as they are gold-diggers for the most part, trynna justify bezos's divorce... I took part in international exams that placed me amongst the first five worldwide (sorry for bragging), I gained a trophy from a respected University congratulating me on my achievements and had the attention of all the students as well as teachers in my school, later that year I also excelled in the following ones but they acted as if it was already expected for me to achieve that. Right now, I'm on the brink of failing as I decided to neglect everything and rope for good.

As you all know, everything is a coping mechanism and I've decided that I'd rather cut my life short than be a miserable misanthrope (no offence) for the rest of my life. You know nothing about me but I'd like to thank all of you for making me laugh, aiding me through non-direct support, overall forming a cohesive community far stronger than any I've stumbled upon. I've witnessed oldcels here giving advice to youngsters, others comforting each other etc. Even though the topics of discussion in this website might be bleak, it's what holds you together like a family. Alas, it all must come to an end for some while others have to carry the legacy.

Apologies if some parts were cringe, have a good one

 

[qtcpepper]

Hey. 23M. Just joined the website today based on a recommendation from a podcast. A whim, I suppose. Like you said, we don’t know each other so there’d be absolutely no way for me to try and talk you off a ledge. That being said, you said you have 10 days left, so if you want someone to talk to for those 10 days, about whatever, I can give you my socials or you can DM me on here if that’s possible and we can chat. Open offer for as long as you’re still breathing.

 

[Xul]

You are too weak to beat your biology, you wont rope. You might end up homeless and dying that way though if you are lucky.

 

[BPJ]

thanks for sharing.

 

[Emba]

Whatever you say Dr Lonely

 

[Fat Link]

If you don’t mind beta buxxing you should stick around as in stay alive and excel in medical schools and as a doctor or whatever it was you were going for.

You’ll be able to afford all the best copes and be able to afford all the best looking paid whores if the beta buxxer strategy doesn’t work out.

Think about it.

 

[sbccel]

Hey. 23M. Just joined the website today based on a recommendation from a podcast. A whim, I suppose. Like you said, we don’t know each other so there’d be absolutely no way for me to try and talk you off a ledge. That being said, you said you have 10 days left, so if you want someone to talk to for those 10 days, about whatever, I can give you my socials or you can DM me on here if that’s possible and we can chat. Open offer for as long as you’re still breathing.

What podcast, name it.

 

[Tetsuya Koalagami]

finish that doctor degree and become a doctor, it's better to have money and be miserable than poor and miserable.

what are the things making you an incel? is it height? you can still potentially grow until age 25 so i would get on hormones and try to heightmaxx, then if that doesn't work, get leg lengthening surgery. hire a personal trainer to show you the ropes of weightlifting and hit the gym after.

treat life like a videogame. hire prostitutes for company, all women are mercenary whores anyway and there is no such thing as free sex. acquire and accumulate money and when you're 25, get a cheap sugarbaby who is like 20 and would be impressed with a free dinner at olive garden, they're out there.

if you're gonna an hero anyway, i am willing to be on the phone with you so you're not alone at your last hour. i am not gonna stop you or report you, because that isn't going to make your life better anyway, and i dont even need to know your name or location. Get a VOIP and send it my way.

 

[psyop]

Grey galore up in here

 

[theanty]

What podcast, name it.

@qtcpepper