Hello, this is my first time posting on this forum. I have been into the blackpill since early 2023. I just wanted to introduce myself. I know that the title is kind of a rhetorical question.
I have tried for many years to find joy in this world. I'm still very young, only being 21 at the time of the post. I have tried various copes ranging from: religion, philosophy, accepting, rejecting, forgiving, and normiemaxxing. I have forced myself to go to college and get a job, but I was never able to be normal. The unfortunate part is that when I was younger, I was very normal. I was happy, sociable, carefree, and confident. I had many friends and happy moments. I didn't bully people; hell, even the teachers were friends with me.
I get sad knowing that I have turned into a failure and a parasite to my family. I had a pretty unfortunate childhood, which I'll refrain from talking about here, but I think the reason I am a failure is because of my environment, genetics, social development, and more. I am a byproduct of things I cannot control; I'm sure many of you can relate.
I am extremely unattractive. I am a KHHV at 21. I am extremely shy and reserved to the point where I don't even make eye contact with family. I even avoid going to get-togethers like Christmas with them because I feel such humiliation for my low standing in society. One thing that might make you cringe or angry at me is I don't blame women for finding me unattractive. I have always been treated well and fairly by both men and women, but I fail to make meaningful connections.
I am too unattractive to find friends or a girlfriend
I'm sorry if this was a cringe post kek
I have tried for many years to find joy in this world. I'm still very young, only being 21 at the time of the post. I have tried various copes ranging from: religion, philosophy, accepting, rejecting, forgiving, and normiemaxxing. I have forced myself to go to college and get a job, but I was never able to be normal. The unfortunate part is that when I was younger, I was very normal. I was happy, sociable, carefree, and confident. I had many friends and happy moments. I didn't bully people; hell, even the teachers were friends with me.
I get sad knowing that I have turned into a failure and a parasite to my family. I had a pretty unfortunate childhood, which I'll refrain from talking about here, but I think the reason I am a failure is because of my environment, genetics, social development, and more. I am a byproduct of things I cannot control; I'm sure many of you can relate.
I am extremely unattractive. I am a KHHV at 21. I am extremely shy and reserved to the point where I don't even make eye contact with family. I even avoid going to get-togethers like Christmas with them because I feel such humiliation for my low standing in society. One thing that might make you cringe or angry at me is I don't blame women for finding me unattractive. I have always been treated well and fairly by both men and women, but I fail to make meaningful connections.
I am too unattractive to find friends or a girlfriend
I'm sorry if this was a cringe post kek
