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Edmund_Kemper
Disregard my larping efforts. I can’t change it.
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I look back at myself, and i realize how autistic i was and i cringe or feel embarrassed. even in the past few months, i had done some autistic shit. i'll admit, my symptoms are not as intense as they used to be (they were most intense in my early mid teens). but my symptoms are still deterring me from having a good life.
it's like no matter what i do, i can't blend in with NT people or be like them. I can't do the things they can do, whether it's social things or anything in general.
when i talk to other autistic people, i'm more high-functioning than them and they and i struggle to have a decent conversation. they might even do things that make me uncomfortable. I don't blend in with them. some are just quiet and never talk. but when i talk to NT people, i only can become acquintances at best if anything, i can only blend in to an extent but not much. i can't blend in with them either. i'm too NT for other autists but too autistic for NT people. i don't blend in with hardly anyone.
it's like no matter what i do, i can't blend in with NT people or be like them. I can't do the things they can do, whether it's social things or anything in general.
when i talk to other autistic people, i'm more high-functioning than them and they and i struggle to have a decent conversation. they might even do things that make me uncomfortable. I don't blend in with them. some are just quiet and never talk. but when i talk to NT people, i only can become acquintances at best if anything, i can only blend in to an extent but not much. i can't blend in with them either. i'm too NT for other autists but too autistic for NT people. i don't blend in with hardly anyone.