I havent because of my family and because rope = cope
Irrational fear of hell
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ER (in GTA 6)
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fear
I can live without ascending without wanting to kms
Also I am still trying to arranged marriagemaxx but it's not looking good
Also I am still trying to arranged marriagemaxx but it's not looking good
scared of death and if theres no afterlife
im really lazy
Because I have car hobby
because i still have vidya to play in my steam backlog
There are still things I want to see and experience
tried. looked up lethal does of sleeping pills (diphenhydramine). it was like 2 or 3 grams. I forget. Bought a couple decent sized bottles. Took them all in my car on the side of the road. Woke up some time later (a day?).
It was so terrifying I don't think I can try that again. I would need a gun or some other immediate solution.
It was so terrifying I don't think I can try that again. I would need a gun or some other immediate solution.
Because I don't need to
I haven't gathered the strength to do it + I have a 80 year old mother that needs help in the last phase of her life. Hopefully I can gather the courage to rope when she is in the ground.
I will soon
Only because my dad said it would get better but he was lying for 10 years and now I don't know. I guess I am already roping, I will definitely get lung cancer sooner than later. I just don't think it's fast enough. I should probably rope asap. I know this shit is just gonna keep getting worse. And everyone around me is gonna keep getting better and refuse to help me. I fucking hate them all.
Could always do it but not interested right now.
I dont fear hell nor nothingness - the latter I would actually embrace.
Fundamentally what makes me not rope is the opposite - infinite.
The real hell is infinite and with infinite possibilities to be reborn as another human theres a TON of options to end up as something MUCH worse.
Imagine being a slave girl in ancient rome.
Imagine being a jew in Auschwitz.
Imagine being Sporus or the Elephant Man.
People existed who lived in such agony and horror that just loneliness and inceldom is but a joke compared to and with infinite I could turn into each of them.
Sure I could be Taylor Swift or Messi or whatever, regardless I fundanmentally think life isnt all that even as Chad millionaire - its just "the best case of life" but it is rare as i can tell you most people did never live a fullfilling or pleasent life and I am sick of repeating this whole shit over and over.
I dont fear hell nor nothingness - the latter I would actually embrace.
Fundamentally what makes me not rope is the opposite - infinite.
The real hell is infinite and with infinite possibilities to be reborn as another human theres a TON of options to end up as something MUCH worse.
Imagine being a slave girl in ancient rome.
Imagine being a jew in Auschwitz.
Imagine being Sporus or the Elephant Man.
People existed who lived in such agony and horror that just loneliness and inceldom is but a joke compared to and with infinite I could turn into each of them.
Sure I could be Taylor Swift or Messi or whatever, regardless I fundanmentally think life isnt all that even as Chad millionaire - its just "the best case of life" but it is rare as i can tell you most people did never live a fullfilling or pleasent life and I am sick of repeating this whole shit over and over.
hell
videogames theyre too much fun man cant imagine throwing them away to kms tbh
I dislike my family, but the thought of making them sad hurts. Also I'm terrified of hell, or just the afterlife in general.
takes too much willpower. its easier to keep on doing what you're doing on any given day than rope
I enjoy life. I just hate people.
The fear of surviving and being in pain, that’s literally it, otherwise I would’ve done it already. I just don’t have access to a fool proof method.
C
same
I'm am too afraid to do it.
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Fear of hell and then later finding that God is real and does truly care
@j10009504 what were the after effects, what did you feel after you woke up. Did you see what's on the other side?
This
This guy gets it
I don't remember seeing anything.
Afterwards my entire body was fucked up. I tried to walk and kept falling down. I couldn't drive. I spend several hours in a parking garage stairwell throwing up and crying.
Organ failure. Did you get your body checked?
no I didn't go to the hospital or anything. eventually I felt better.
the 10 minutes in between taking the pills and falling asleep was the scary part. I kept thinking I better get out of the car and pass out on the ground so someone will call a ambulance. but I just sat there.
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Survival instinct
@j10009504 How was the quality of the sleep? What did you feel or see in the dream?
there was no dream. quality of sleep probably was bad because the pills were killing me. i'm not sure how close I came to being dead.
@j10009504 Do you regret taking the pills? Do you still wanna live?
I don't regret it, sometimes wish it worked. Other times I am not so depressed. Right now I don't mind being alive. Who knows about next month. Have you ever tried?
Animalistic fear of death
@j10009504 Tried but pussied out cuz cuts weren't deep enough. I didn't feel anything when I was doing it probably because of the psychiatric meds I was on. I wish to go back in time and make cuts deep enough to kill me.
High-inhibition, a few copes and lack of access to any painless suicide method.
that sounds like a painful way.
@j10009504 It was
I need to go ER before I can. And before I can go ER I need a heavy firearm and explosives and possibly a helicopter
Based
Im still young so Im I will try to cope for as long as possible. Also I wanna see what cool tech gets invented in the future.
Want to wait until AI get's better.
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