So I was awake last night again for a long time, raging about what's normal for others and I will never ever have: relationships, sex, warmth etc. If I don't think about it too hard and do vidya or reading to distract myself, I can actually feel ok and not miserable. But I want more than to feel "ok" some of the time and "miserable" (at work or when I'm in bed overthinking or when I'm generally outside and see any couple) most of the time. Women are egoistic, they will never like a deafcel and autismcel in one. Literally nightmare's fuel, this combination. And, believe it or not, the autism is the 10 times worse disability out of those 2.
God made me and gave me the fucking same sexual drive or even higher than a normie or a chad, but no way to connect with neurotypical women. I imagine him sitting him somewhere above me and howling with laughter. There's no thing more cruel in the world. It's always the same. Even if a foid looks at me, she notices immediately, that I'm a subhuman and look at me with disgust. It's literally over. I don't even know whom I hate more, Chads or Stacys.
Anyways, I wanted to know what your guys opinion is, what the best sexual cope is.
1) Fapping
The oldest cope. The one that will always be there for you, in a good or bad way. I did it my whole life, but in a way I think it destroys my soul. Tbh, fapping is subhuman. You literally fuck yourself, how low is that?
2) Escort/Brothel
I tried this a few times, wasn't actually bad. A few years ago, in my country, whores sucked your dick raw. Best feeling in my life. But imagine, Chad gets that multiple times every day, without paying money. And now it's only sucking with condom. Cucked for life. I think a whore is ok, if you crave female contact after weeks, months, years without any contact. Condoms suck though. Paying sucks though. Most prostitutes suck though, are old and ugly.
3) Real Doll/Artificial Vagina
Real Dolls are expensive, artificial vagina not so much though. You thrust and actually, it's a better feeling than fapping, feels a bit like you accomplished something. Truth be told, I'm just too lazy to thrust everyday. Fapping is easier.
4) Mail-Order Bride
Thought about this a lot, too. Either from Eastern Europe or Asia. A pretty wife, which stays home with my autistic ass all day, is submissive. Wouldn't even be that expensive tbh. You would save taxes with a wife and things like your car or appartement won't get more expensive. In my opinion, with an average income you can well maintain a cutie wife. Prenup, and what can she do? Nothing I guess. She has to stay with you. I consider the chance, that she's running away and robbing you, as many people fear, rather low. After all, these women don't come from western cucknations but from where men still have the say. It could be possible she works with criminals, and after you fucked her for a few weeks, they clean your appartement while you are at work. But this chance is rather low. Generally, if the woman is alone and not with some criminals, what can she do, alone in a foreign country? Why should she divorce you, to live on the streets afterwards?
If this would work, you bring home a cutie wife from some shithole country, it would be by far the best option imo (for her, too). You could finally take care of your sexual and emotional needs, wouldn't need to mask your autism, stay at home and live a good life.
Also this is just the only option out of these 4 that's the real thing imo. Only if it works of course. But compare fapping or artifical vagina with a real, cutie wife you have all to yourself? Yeah, you know what's better.
God made me and gave me the fucking same sexual drive or even higher than a normie or a chad, but no way to connect with neurotypical women. I imagine him sitting him somewhere above me and howling with laughter. There's no thing more cruel in the world. It's always the same. Even if a foid looks at me, she notices immediately, that I'm a subhuman and look at me with disgust. It's literally over. I don't even know whom I hate more, Chads or Stacys.
Anyways, I wanted to know what your guys opinion is, what the best sexual cope is.
1) Fapping
The oldest cope. The one that will always be there for you, in a good or bad way. I did it my whole life, but in a way I think it destroys my soul. Tbh, fapping is subhuman. You literally fuck yourself, how low is that?
2) Escort/Brothel
I tried this a few times, wasn't actually bad. A few years ago, in my country, whores sucked your dick raw. Best feeling in my life. But imagine, Chad gets that multiple times every day, without paying money. And now it's only sucking with condom. Cucked for life. I think a whore is ok, if you crave female contact after weeks, months, years without any contact. Condoms suck though. Paying sucks though. Most prostitutes suck though, are old and ugly.
3) Real Doll/Artificial Vagina
Real Dolls are expensive, artificial vagina not so much though. You thrust and actually, it's a better feeling than fapping, feels a bit like you accomplished something. Truth be told, I'm just too lazy to thrust everyday. Fapping is easier.
4) Mail-Order Bride
Thought about this a lot, too. Either from Eastern Europe or Asia. A pretty wife, which stays home with my autistic ass all day, is submissive. Wouldn't even be that expensive tbh. You would save taxes with a wife and things like your car or appartement won't get more expensive. In my opinion, with an average income you can well maintain a cutie wife. Prenup, and what can she do? Nothing I guess. She has to stay with you. I consider the chance, that she's running away and robbing you, as many people fear, rather low. After all, these women don't come from western cucknations but from where men still have the say. It could be possible she works with criminals, and after you fucked her for a few weeks, they clean your appartement while you are at work. But this chance is rather low. Generally, if the woman is alone and not with some criminals, what can she do, alone in a foreign country? Why should she divorce you, to live on the streets afterwards?
If this would work, you bring home a cutie wife from some shithole country, it would be by far the best option imo (for her, too). You could finally take care of your sexual and emotional needs, wouldn't need to mask your autism, stay at home and live a good life.
Also this is just the only option out of these 4 that's the real thing imo. Only if it works of course. But compare fapping or artifical vagina with a real, cutie wife you have all to yourself? Yeah, you know what's better.
