AtomicBlackPill
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- Joined
- Mar 21, 2021
- Posts
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TLDR at the bottom
After taking the blackpill, is it just jumping from cope to cope to cope and distracting myself until I die? are my expectations for a blackpill ''solution'' too high?
I mean the blackpill knowledge is a burden. Like many of you here I have blackpill knowledge and I have experienced it growing up. The blackpill runs so much deeper than women, it's about human nature. The blackpill disillusioned me from the lies that were thought to me growing up. I learned that you dont matter as a man because you're always replaceable there will always be someone better than you to fill your role. Women are cruel and heartless the way they have led me on and used me for attention and took advantage of my bluepill naive past self, makes me furious and upset.
I could go on all day but bottom line is we got the short end of the stick and there needs to be someone who gets the shitty end of the stick so others can have good lives. I have no hobbies, motivation and my mental health is in the drain and add onto that the blackpill. Knowing the Disney tale of love and falling in love is bs for an ugly guy cuts me deep. I think blkpill press made a great post about love not being real/ not as we were told.
The MGTOW guys say find your purpose and delve into your hobbies but I don't have a purpose or hobbies beside youtube and video games. I tried the gym and many other things and I simply tolerate them. Then they say ''it's not my job to find your purpose figure it out man''.
Is suicide really all that's left because fuck living for a society that hates men especially ugly men. I was always bottom of the barrel, picked on, bullied and I'm traumatised and left to deal with the manifestations of that trauma that is trapped in the subconscious parts of my brain from years of being beaten down and treated like I'm below others. I'm tired man.
Thanks for reading
TLDR: I took the blackpill nearly two years ago but now I don't know what's next
After taking the blackpill, is it just jumping from cope to cope to cope and distracting myself until I die? are my expectations for a blackpill ''solution'' too high?
I mean the blackpill knowledge is a burden. Like many of you here I have blackpill knowledge and I have experienced it growing up. The blackpill runs so much deeper than women, it's about human nature. The blackpill disillusioned me from the lies that were thought to me growing up. I learned that you dont matter as a man because you're always replaceable there will always be someone better than you to fill your role. Women are cruel and heartless the way they have led me on and used me for attention and took advantage of my bluepill naive past self, makes me furious and upset.
I could go on all day but bottom line is we got the short end of the stick and there needs to be someone who gets the shitty end of the stick so others can have good lives. I have no hobbies, motivation and my mental health is in the drain and add onto that the blackpill. Knowing the Disney tale of love and falling in love is bs for an ugly guy cuts me deep. I think blkpill press made a great post about love not being real/ not as we were told.
The MGTOW guys say find your purpose and delve into your hobbies but I don't have a purpose or hobbies beside youtube and video games. I tried the gym and many other things and I simply tolerate them. Then they say ''it's not my job to find your purpose figure it out man''.
Is suicide really all that's left because fuck living for a society that hates men especially ugly men. I was always bottom of the barrel, picked on, bullied and I'm traumatised and left to deal with the manifestations of that trauma that is trapped in the subconscious parts of my brain from years of being beaten down and treated like I'm below others. I'm tired man.
Thanks for reading
TLDR: I took the blackpill nearly two years ago but now I don't know what's next