A person who genuinely loves you back and cares about you who isn't your relatives, doesn't exist in this world. Even for Chad. You can't help the things you long for. The things you want most, you can never have. How often do peoples dreams come true? The poor and homeless die that way. The lonely die that way. The unathletic and unnatractive die that way. It's over, just stop trying and give up. Nothing will ever change for you. Just try your hardest to hold up the bar and keep things from getting worse for you.
