It is hard to remember when I was bluepilled. I think it was when I hit my teens that I realized everything normies spilled out of their mouths was bull. I realized that I was a fucken failure of a human, I could not become someone that was wanted. I tried to excel in my school work and become the smart kid but failed, everyone was ahead of me. Honestly hurt every time you failed to get top scores, just hoping if you did well enough someone would take interest in pushing you ahead. I tried to be the good kid, backfired because everyone just used me and I became invisible because I was not causing trouble. IT tears will take this as just "Dude work on yourself, you got to love yourself". It is impossible to do that when you have never had anyone who gave you that affection and you could trust your deepest feelings.
If you are a male and don't posses looks, or very high IQ. You are treated like a rabid stray and no one wants anything to do with you, regardless if you are a kid. You just fall through the cracks.