2011. I was a normie but had introvert tendencies. The culmination of going to highschool and moving away from my childhood friends equated me becoming anti-social. Because I did not do well in elementary school, i had to compensate, in highschool, and I learned by listenning, so i STFU and after a while became socially inept. I remember riding bikes cracking jokes with my friends, chilling at the park until the warm summer sun set into the horizon.
Every year since then, I have felt empty inside, until the past 3 years where I have become basically a social recluse. This year has been the most suicidal year of my life, almost pull the trigger a few times, but i guess I am still hopeful, especially since it never began. Based on me no lifing right now, despite saying I woould fly straight for about 3 years now, I will probably not make it past the next decade.