What do you cherish most in life? How do you rationalize living another day?
If life has phases, then I'm in the undead stage. When I was younger, my life was worse, but it had more possibilities to it. Now that I've been living a life closer to my ideal, I've realized all there is to it is sublimation and coping.
Life in the modern world is like watching gladiators fight. I don't want to be in the crowd, ever a spectator, but I don't want to take the problems of getting into the arena and joining the fight.
To put it another way: I don't want to leave a mark on history, to be an ambitious man of achievements, or to do anything else of prominence because it would destroy any taste of inner peace. I would like to live and die a nobody, but I can't find peace in this either. I'm just waiting for some crisis to occur. I feel like I would blossom in those conditions as I did during COVID-19. When a crisis is about, nearly everyone starts acting differently. Some people are enthusiastic about it because it fits their ideal, some people use it to profit, and others bear the brunt of the negative consequences.
If life has phases, then I'm in the undead stage. When I was younger, my life was worse, but it had more possibilities to it. Now that I've been living a life closer to my ideal, I've realized all there is to it is sublimation and coping.
Life in the modern world is like watching gladiators fight. I don't want to be in the crowd, ever a spectator, but I don't want to take the problems of getting into the arena and joining the fight.
To put it another way: I don't want to leave a mark on history, to be an ambitious man of achievements, or to do anything else of prominence because it would destroy any taste of inner peace. I would like to live and die a nobody, but I can't find peace in this either. I'm just waiting for some crisis to occur. I feel like I would blossom in those conditions as I did during COVID-19. When a crisis is about, nearly everyone starts acting differently. Some people are enthusiastic about it because it fits their ideal, some people use it to profit, and others bear the brunt of the negative consequences.
