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I realized something, that if, one ever wants to improve, be happy, more or less see any positive change to their existence whatsoever, they must have hope. They have to believe that it is somehow, by some miracle, possible to achieve the things they desire, the belief that life will not be this terrible forever. Hope for something, anything, that gives you a reason to keep fighting.
If you don't have hope, you are doomed. You'll be like I am, in constant misery, obsessed with suicide, hateful to all, especially those who are better than you. You'll never be able to muster up the minimum amount of energy, willpower, or confidence required to live like a human being.
This also caused me to realize, I genuinely have no hope. I see no way I can get better, I see no solution to my problems. There is nothing I can do. I will always be an ugly, short, small dicked sub-human, always on the brink of total insanity, innumerable mental issues, poor, living in a horrible place, in total isolation. I cannot change this, I don't have the power.
What have I left to hold on to? What have I to motivate me? If I cannot find hope, in any form, soon, I think I will die.
If you don't have hope, you are doomed. You'll be like I am, in constant misery, obsessed with suicide, hateful to all, especially those who are better than you. You'll never be able to muster up the minimum amount of energy, willpower, or confidence required to live like a human being.
This also caused me to realize, I genuinely have no hope. I see no way I can get better, I see no solution to my problems. There is nothing I can do. I will always be an ugly, short, small dicked sub-human, always on the brink of total insanity, innumerable mental issues, poor, living in a horrible place, in total isolation. I cannot change this, I don't have the power.
What have I left to hold on to? What have I to motivate me? If I cannot find hope, in any form, soon, I think I will die.
