what happened childhood trauma

[eclipse]

did your parents ever made a comment or joke around in a bad way,and that got stuck in your head forever? i was,my mother would body shamed,called a hunchback kid,that stuck in me,cannot get out my head,my father would also bodyshamed

 

[SocialzERo]

thats nothing

 

[Cuckoja]

Behind every incel stand evil crazy parents.

 

[Revolution Needed 2]

Behind every incel stand evil crazy parents.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

I see...

My mother, though not necessarily schizophrenic, suffers from PTSD and auditory psychosis. I doubt she is NT. Anyway, she was always depressed throughout my childhood and would often think people were making violent hand signs at her.

We shared a bedroom/bed when I was younger due to unfortunate circumstances and poverty.

Literally(Non-Jokingly):

I was homeschooled due to health problems and bullying, which meant I sat in isolation daily while my parents constantly argued and hit each-other. My father would unlock our house door after work each day and start violent confrontations with Mother. I'd sit in my room and fidget while they were arguing.

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As such, I was never properly educated by Mother(Writing practice was the most she offered to me) and so I educated myself by reading any interesting books I could find, which included a nursing reference my maternal grandmother gave Mother and pocket dictionaries. When I visited my paternal grandparents, I'd sometimes read health-related articles online and fanfiction.

I could've been much more by adolescence if I had received early treatment for ADHD and Dyscalculia. Observe:

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Yes. As a child, people would stare at my fidgeting and laugh at me. Adults, youth, et cetera...Mother often grabbed me and repeatedly told me that I looked "m-e-n-t-a-l-l-y r-e-t-a-r-d-e-d" while fidgeting.

In my case, they certainly did. When I was a young child, I was denigrated by teachers because my writing was scribble from "Dysgraphia".

Mother used to grab me very forcefully(By the neck, as I was fidgeting with items; I would ache from it) and repeatedly tell me "Do you hear me!?! If people see you doing that, they will think you are men-tally retar-ded!" while shaking me and shaking the item near my eyes. She would tell me how embarrassing it is to have an autistic son who fidgets with items as a form of stimulation.

My grandmother would often ask me to do things for her. I obediently tried to follow her instructions and received denigration as a result. She would yell at me and say things like "Look! Use your eyes!"(Because I was anxious and had visual processing issues), "Did you hear me!?! That isn't the way I told you to do it!"(When I would drop things or make mistakes because I was sweating and anxious out of fear of upsetting her). She would tell me "Put your head up. No one did anything to you" because I was too anxious to make eye contact with her.

 

[crvkek]

Behind every incel stand evil crazy parents.

the horror of this statement cannot be truly understood till you see the fallout from atrocious parenting.

the warped distrubed ill things that are thrown into adulthood are tear inducing. they call them incels but theyre really victims who are unprepared and cannot offset the life debuff they inherited from having a bad hand given to them,


many people have no budiness reproducing or caring for others because theyre incompetent, neglectful, abusive, dismissive and hazdourous to a childs devellopment. the poor young incel souls never had a chance

 

[Cuckoja]

the horror of this statement cannot be truly understood till you see the fallout from atrocious parenting.

the warped distrubed ill things that are thrown into adulthood are tear inducing. they call them incels but theyre really victims who are unprepared and cannot offset the life debuff they inherited from having a bad hand given to them,


many people have no budiness reproducing or caring for others because theyre incompetent, neglectful, abusive, dismissive and hazdourous to a childs devellopment. the poor young incel souls never had a chance

Well said.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

thats nothing

Indeed. I'll offer the retcon:

Yes. As a child, people would stare at my fidgeting and laugh at me. Adults, youth, et cetera...Mother often grabbed me and repeatedly told me that I looked "m-e-n-t-a-l-l-y r-e-t-a-r-d-e-d" while fidgeting.

My mother, as kind as she may be, used to grab me very forcefully(By the neck, as I was fidgeting with items; I would ache from it) and repeatedly tell me "Do you hear me!?! If people see you doing that, they will think you are men-tally retar-ded!" while shaking me and shaking the item near my eyes. She would tell me how embarrassing it is to have an autistic son who fidgets with items as a form of stimulation. Other times, she would hit me. When I said, "Please don't hit me!" once, she started laughing.

Mother used to grab my neck and shove objects in my face forcefully.

When I was an adolescent, mother would accuse me for any misplaced items and immediately threaten to kick me out.

Her mother would criticize me for stuttering and lack of eye contact, and also suggested having me kicked out.

ParadigmaticAnon Join Date: 2016-01-25 Post Count: 182 #182605101Friday, January 29, 2016 1:15 AM CST Naive adolescent schoolchild, this is a matter of simple-psychology. Your mother utilizes physical-violence to instill fear within your thoughts. She is hoping that fear of the behavioral-ramifications will prevent you from retaliating against her whims. Whether this is "abuse" is purely subjective.

Re: I have no ego whatsoever

AnonyAnonymous Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332

#150854133Sunday, November 30, 2014 8:34 PM CST "problem is I've cut off contacts with everyone outside my family except for a select group of people once a month at a club meeting so yeah" I would suggest attempting to retrieve an assessment from a qualified psychologist.

Re: lmao my dad who's been away for like most of my life

AnonyAnonymous Join Date: 2013-06-23 Post Count: 6332

#158661030Thursday, March 26, 2015 1:27 AM CDT Biologically, fertilization occurred, and that certainly wasn't a mistake. It would seem that your father is using you as a target for his own issues, likely out of internal psychological conflict for his abandonment of his offspring. Personally, I would suggest communicating with a trained professional in psychology about this as the situation is apparently causing you distress due to your lack of parental acceptance.