SuicideFuel What dreams have you given up on

[Deep.Nest]

When I was a kid, I thought I was gonna be really cool and successful when I became an adult, but turns out I just got extremely pathetic and miserable. There's little to no hope that my life will ever turn out to be something great.

I've always wanted to be a scientist, either chemistry or computer science. I wanted to become an expert in certain studies and I wanted the knowledge of how our universe works and an understanding of everything that could potentially be conceived on this planet. Not a boring scientist though. I wanted to be a innovative scientist who creates gadgets and machines for fun to show off to my friends, after me and my hypothetical buddies would spend a day having a blast in the lab, we'd go out and get drunk cause we would still be cool. I never deluded myself into thinking I could radically advance the planet, but I didn't care. I just wanted to have fun and create shit.

I still have a hard time coming to terms with the fact that this will never happen. My social and mental health has been on a steady decline ever since I became a teenager. My motivation was killed and it was hard to care about my education or future. My grades never became atrocious, but they didn't suffice. I used to be a straight A student even taking honors and AP level classes but that evolved into getting mostly Bs and even a few Cs. I went to an ok college for a bit but dropped out and now I'm in community college which I'm honestly ashamed to admit. It really feels too late to start living a life I can be proud of. I know my life will never be what I'd hoped for and it's too late to change this. If I don't rope, I'll live on to work some boring dead end job with no family or friends.

I bet many of you can relate and I'd be interested in hearing about your stories.

 

[JucheApologist]

All, I just sit at home and rot

 

[Lonelyus]

I wanted to be rich with a house near the sea so i can escape the 9-5 and fish all day and go back inside to play videogames when i want, Now as im a NEET i have the time freedom but not location freedom, Its over and im fucking ugly, I also wanted to move to somewhere sunnier that doesnt have this shitty ass climate, Anyway nvm that, I guess the jew and my genetics decides what im allowed to do in this world.

 

[VideoGameCoper]

I gave up on ever having a loving woman and having a real friend group. I will not give up on my hobbies though. My father and I did a lot of car stuff together before he passed away, and I still have his muscle car. It’s a 1971 Camaro with 500 horsepower, but it’s got some serious issues. I need to get a job to afford the repairs which will be around $5,000 USD. I cannot give up the car hobby or I’d be a complete rotter. I also have not given up on our cabin, despite my father not being here to enjoy it and maintain it with me like we did my whole life. It’s a lot of work to maintain the land and repair the riding mowers, tractor, and other equipment myself, but I’m doing my best

 

[Incline]

 

[ayowai]

Ever getting married, getting a PhD, making my parents proud, etc.

 

[Freixel]

Have a wife and children, a healthy family

Becoming a professional fighter

 

[PureImagination]

I just sit at home and rot when i'm not working

 

[Friezacel]

-living a happy life
-having a gf
-getting rich
-getting treated like a human being

 

[Nagger]

Cool dream brocel.

When I was smaller I used to dream of Alaska, a place devoid of people where "loners" (I instinctively knew I was an incel but hadn't discovered the word) like myself could just enjoy nature all day long and not be forced to interact with people.

Obviously the US of Gay isn't a good place to be and Canada is even worse. The dream of self reliance has died and that primal need for independence is slowly making way for more realistic goals. Right now I am hoping to buy a cabin in some dead village in rural Romania and hopefully live my life as a semi hermit.

It wouldn't be total isolation and it also wouldn't be too civilized.

 

[Linesnap99]

dreams of fucking your mom

 

[Vakasneb3856]

Having a functional body
Being respected
Being Valued
Being loved by someone that loves me and no one else
Having a well paying job thats enjoyable and do cool shit
space travel (more of a kid fantasy)
feeling safe
being noticed or acknowledged by the opposite sex
have a caring group of friends

just to name a few

 

[aspercel01]

All, I just sit at home and rot

Partially this, but at the same time i really want to make money to get surgeries. Just every time Im about to sit down and start learning either to school or how to approach data analysis i just give up and continue LDARing, because it seems like the few years time is too big of a wait for it to even be worth it. Even tough logically I believe puting the work in even for a fairly uncertain and probabily non satysfying result is better than just LDARing, I cant help myself, I, today again, once I was about to "work", I graved my phone and went to watch porn. Im turning into a gigacoomer.

 

[Deep.Nest]

I gave up on ever having a loving woman and having a real friend group. I will not give up on my hobbies though. My father and I did a lot of car stuff together before he passed away, and I still have his muscle car. It’s a 1971 Camaro with 500 horsepower, but it’s got some serious issues. I need to get a job to afford the repairs which will be around $5,000 USD. I cannot give up the car hobby or I’d be a complete rotter. I also have not given up on our cabin, despite my father not being here to enjoy it and maintain it with me like we did my whole life. It’s a lot of work to maintain the land and repair the riding mowers, tractor, and other equipment myself, but I’m doing my best

That's nice. I wish I knew more about cars. Not too late to learn tho

 

[Emba]

Finding Wyoming platinum

 

[Emba]

I gave up on ever having a loving woman and having a real friend group. I will not give up on my hobbies though. My father and I did a lot of car stuff together before he passed away, and I still have his muscle car. It’s a 1971 Camaro with 500 horsepower, but it’s got some serious issues. I need to get a job to afford the repairs which will be around $5,000 USD. I cannot give up the car hobby or I’d be a complete rotter. I also have not given up on our cabin, despite my father not being here to enjoy it and maintain it with me like we did my whole life. It’s a lot of work to maintain the land and repair the riding mowers, tractor, and other equipment myself, but I’m doing my best

Nice life bro!

 

[Nate Dogg]

I gave up on NEETing/LDARing I'll have to get a job

 

[LeFrenchCel]

Being happy

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Being happy

 

[VideoGameCoper]

That's nice. I wish I knew more about cars. Not too late to learn tho

Cars are great. I’d learn a bit if you can

 

[VideoGameCoper]

Nice life bro!

Thanks. Cars keep me sane

 

[Emba]

Thanks. Cars keep me sane

I had cars before!

Out of my budget now.

I'm a motorcyclist these days, cheaper to fix

 

[VideoGameCoper]

I had cars before!

Out of my budget now.

I'm a motorcyclist these days, cheaper to fix

Motorcycles are great. I wish I had one. What kind is it?

 

[lifesucksandyoudie]

I gave up on doing anything that could greater meaning or purpose in my life after realizing I can't even get the bare basic essentials down. No point in getting too ahead of myself when I can't overcome the initial hurdles.

 

[Emba]

Motorcycles are great. I wish I had one. What kind is it?

Generic Chinese 50cc cheapo.

 

[VideoGameCoper]

Generic Chinese 50cc cheapo.

That’s still pretty cool and sounds like fun! Any idea what the top speed is?

 

[Emba]

That’s still pretty cool and sounds like fun! Any idea what the top speed is?

60+ it pegs out... Twice the limit.. Lol. I think it shipped missing the governer washer! Yeah, a 2mm(?) washer in the transmission holds it back! It's so funny!

Ive never been harassed by cops either. Ofc, I stay tf out of traffic. And ride all safe and shit. Wear a non required Helmet...

 

[VideoGameCoper]

60+ it pegs out... Twice the limit.. Lol. I think it shipped missing the governer washer! Yeah, a 2mm(?) washer in the transmission holds it back! It's so funny!

Ive never been harassed by cops either. Ofc, I stay tf out of traffic. And ride all safe and shit. Wear a non required Helmet...

Nice! That sounds like great fun!

 

[Emba]

Nice! That sounds like great fun!

It's ok. Beats the 50cc recumbent moped I had before. It was weak single speed. Not CVT.

 

[VideoGameCoper]

It's ok. Beats the 50cc recumbent moped I had before. It was weak single speed. Not CVT.

Single speeds suck. CVT is pretty cool because of how smooth it is. I have driven CVT drive ATVs before, and they have good power response

 

[Emba]

Single speeds suck. CVT is pretty cool because of how smooth it is. I have driven CVT drive ATVs before, and they have good power response

If I was richer and younger I'd build a narrow æro 50cc recumbent truck-like thing. Or maybe just use a trailer with it.

They're really long

 

[VideoGameCoper]

If I was richer and younger I'd build a narrow æro 50cc recumbent truck-like thing. Or maybe just use a trailer with it.

They're really long

Cool

 

[lazy_gamer_423]

Being happy

 

[Emba]

Cool

One with a CVT engine...

 

[VideoGameCoper]

One with a CVT engine...

A CVT transmission on one of those would be cool.

 

[Emba]

A CVT transmission on one of those would be cool.

So far none exist except as homebuilt

 

[VideoGameCoper]

So far none exist except as homebuilt

Interesting. Right now I’m trying to fix up a cheap 2 stroke converted bicycle I was given. I got the clutch, brakes, and handlebars fixed, but the engine is seized from sitting too long without turning over. I have penetrating oil soaking in the cylinder to free it up. It has worked to save other small engines in the past

 

[Kaichee]

That we can secure the existence of our people and a future for white children

 

[Emba]

Interesting. Right now I’m trying to fix up a cheap 2 stroke converted bicycle I was given. I got the clutch, brakes, and handlebars fixed, but the engine is seized from sitting too long without turning over. I have penetrating oil soaking in the cylinder to free it up. It has worked to save other small engines in the past

Looks like an early motorcycle?

 

[VideoGameCoper]

Looks like an early motorcycle?

Not really. Just a basic pedal bike with an engine attached to it

 

[Emba]

Not really. Just a basic pedal bike with an engine attached to it

In the middle of the frame?

 

[VideoGameCoper]

In the middle of the frame?

Yes

 

[M3llow3lectrician]

Being a professional athlete and then being a rich music producer. Now my only dream left is ascending and living a basic but okay life. If I can’t have that then I probably should rope.

 

[Emba]

Yes

I had one that looked like a early motorcycle. 67cc two stroke running through a jack shaft. So it had 7 speeds.

Did 35 uphill with a full load of grocery stuff. With pedaling! Fucking loud and stuff rattled off a lot.

Eventually the jack shaft bearings exploded.

 

[VideoGameCoper]

I had one that looked like a early motorcycle. 67cc two stroke running through a jack shaft. So it had 7 speeds.

Did 35 uphill with a full load of grocery stuff. With pedaling! Fucking loud and stuff rattled off a lot.

Eventually the jack shaft bearings exploded.

Sounds epic. I think the one I have is 79 cc or something like that. Engine is still seized, so I’m probably gonna have to pull the engine head off and use a block of wood and hammer to try to free up the seized piston.

 

[Emba]

Sounds epic. I think the one I have is 79 cc or something like that. Engine is still seized, so I’m probably gonna have to pull the engine head off and use a block of wood and hammer to try to free up the seized piston.

Heat sometimes works. Gently though. Like a mini propane torch.

 

[VideoGameCoper]

Heat sometimes works. Gently though. Like a mini propane torch.

Yep. I will se what I can do with it. I will try tapping it first, and if that doesn’t work, try a little heat. I know when removing stubborn buoys on riding mowers that have Loctite holding them, I use a torch to heat them up and the they come right out

 

[MuddyBuddy]

All I ever wanted was a wife and kids. This should be something every man is guaranteed to.

 

[XDFLAMEBOY]

When I was a kid, I thought I was gonna be really cool and successful when I became an adult, but turns out I just got extremely pathetic and miserable. There's little to no hope that my life will ever turn out to be something great.

I've always wanted to be a scientist, either chemistry or computer science. I wanted to become an expert in certain studies and I wanted the knowledge of how our universe works and an understanding of everything that could potentially be conceived on this planet. Not a boring scientist though. I wanted to be a innovative scientist who creates gadgets and machines for fun to show off to my friends, after me and my hypothetical buddies would spend a day having a blast in the lab, we'd go out and get drunk cause we would still be cool. I never deluded myself into thinking I could radically advance the planet, but I didn't care. I just wanted to have fun and create shit.

I still have a hard time coming to terms with the fact that this will never happen. My social and mental health has been on a steady decline ever since I became a teenager. My motivation was killed and it was hard to care about my education or future. My grades never became atrocious, but they didn't suffice. I used to be a straight A student even taking honors and AP level classes but that evolved into getting mostly Bs and even a few Cs. I went to an ok college for a bit but dropped out and now I'm in community college which I'm honestly ashamed to admit. It really feels too late to start living a life I can be proud of. I know my life will never be what I'd hoped for and it's too late to change this. If I don't rope, I'll live on to work some boring dead end job with no family or friends.

I bet many of you can relate and I'd be interested in hearing about your stories.

Gave up on ever having a loving woman and having a real friend group. I’ll probably never fall in love and gave up on the idea of romance, plus I gave up on dreaming on becoming an A-list celebrity on becoming an actor or any famous musician I have not given up on other goals though however my optimism is very weak that I almost want to LDAR

 

[XDFLAMEBOY]

I wanted to be rich with a house near the sea so i can escape the 9-5 and fish all day and go back inside to play videogames when i want, Now as im a NEET i have the time freedom but not location freedom, Its over and im fucking ugly, I also wanted to move to somewhere sunnier that doesnt have this shitty ass climate, Anyway nvm that, I guess the jew and my genetics decides what im allowed to do in this world.

My dream felt broken too because my dad forced us to move to a country where I hate. I can relate to you on a failed hope