dragoncatdog
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- Aug 2, 2018
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I sleep late so I wake up late, that was days feel like they're finishing faster and I don't need to endure most of each day.
I'm autistic gymcel. Negative canthal tilt, recessed chin, rounded jaw, flat low cheekbones, assymetric lips, nose, eyes, droopy face in general. Sigh.
I wake up midday usually or a bit before, breakfast, go straight to my computer. 30 mins later I go brush my teeth, back to computer. Computer and computer games entire day, going through 9gag, YouTube, various stupid things to pass time. 7pm go to gym for one hour. Half heartedly attempt a flirt once in a while with girl at gym, one word response, no eye contact, they quickly move away awkwardly. Sigh.
Come back home, videos, games, food and almost nothing else. Music occasionally.
I just can't bring myself to do anything else and I struggle to find enjoyment out of life.
I'm a maths student at university heading towards maths teaching career, my exams are in 8 weeks and I'll probably start studying soon
But I just have motivation or heart for anything else in life. All I can think about is how the only reason my life is like this is because of my face. I watch those videos posted here about chads exerting their power over women and how women react to and do anything for Chad , and it breaks my heart every single time. I know most of these people are fuckers and the roasties are probably egotistical whores, but it hurts to be ignored, dismissed and condemned. To be avoided because of my face, and to not have anybody want to have anything to do with me. I keep trying to tell myself there's more to life than people, but Is there really? Man.
I don't do so many things out of sheer despair at my face. I can only sit and dream about what life experience people like Sam Nessman, Toni MAhfud or Sergio del Rio Romero must have. I am honestly on the brink of ropemax
I'm autistic gymcel. Negative canthal tilt, recessed chin, rounded jaw, flat low cheekbones, assymetric lips, nose, eyes, droopy face in general. Sigh.
I wake up midday usually or a bit before, breakfast, go straight to my computer. 30 mins later I go brush my teeth, back to computer. Computer and computer games entire day, going through 9gag, YouTube, various stupid things to pass time. 7pm go to gym for one hour. Half heartedly attempt a flirt once in a while with girl at gym, one word response, no eye contact, they quickly move away awkwardly. Sigh.
Come back home, videos, games, food and almost nothing else. Music occasionally.
I just can't bring myself to do anything else and I struggle to find enjoyment out of life.
I'm a maths student at university heading towards maths teaching career, my exams are in 8 weeks and I'll probably start studying soon
But I just have motivation or heart for anything else in life. All I can think about is how the only reason my life is like this is because of my face. I watch those videos posted here about chads exerting their power over women and how women react to and do anything for Chad , and it breaks my heart every single time. I know most of these people are fuckers and the roasties are probably egotistical whores, but it hurts to be ignored, dismissed and condemned. To be avoided because of my face, and to not have anybody want to have anything to do with me. I keep trying to tell myself there's more to life than people, but Is there really? Man.
I don't do so many things out of sheer despair at my face. I can only sit and dream about what life experience people like Sam Nessman, Toni MAhfud or Sergio del Rio Romero must have. I am honestly on the brink of ropemax