Had suspicions around 17, confirmed at 21
Experiment What age did you swallow the blackpill and accept inceldom?
Every incel goes through several stages I guess. I believed in PUA bluepilled advise at around 16 (was a good cope at that time) but I always want to face the harsh truth and I've always done that when I was younger (cruelty in the meat industry ->veganism) so I wanted to face the truth when it comes to the effects of a human's appearance. PUA delivered no studies, just lines that your grandmother would tell you, so I read a lot about The Red Pill and eventually I ended up here at 17. It's good to know the truth about women and about my own SMV at such a young age. I won't have to experience unexpected humiliations, being cucked and much more.
I guess it started to hit some of us younger if were very ugly, or manlets, or autistic. Also experiencing a lot of rejection early on doesnt help a developing mind at all
I should add I never was delusional about my looks, ever. Usually children get complimented because of their cute appearance, I never did. At only 10 years old, I looked into the mirror and felt disgustingly ugly. My mother always let me know that I was unattractive, too, which did not help my self-esteem of course. At 12 years old, when a girl "asked me out", I already knew she just wanted to prank me and make fun of me, so I was pretty much blackpilled at the age of 11 already. When I was around 13, I realized I could never approach a girl in real life because of my looks, so I did approach them online. Whenever they asked for pictures, I came up with excuses. I knew that they would judge me based on my looks and would stop having conversations with me. One time I sent a picture and the girl directly told me that I looked weird. I did not ask for her opinion. I always avoided taking pictures or having taken pictures of me because I knew that looking at my true ugly looks would induce depressing thoughts. As a consequence of being blackpilled that early, I minimized the exposure to reality which lead me to have no social life at all. I developed a gaming addiction, because in the virtual world I was the winner, I was the superior character and I could dominate others because of my skill. The result of that is that I now am socially awkward and socially anxious because of the lack of experience in my formative years. At around 15, when my gaming addiction vanished, I tried to enter the real world, and if I wanted to have fun in the real world I must be bluepilled. I started watching self-improvement channels, then went over to RSD channels and coped hard. Looking back at these two years (15-16), I realize that deep down I knew that was pure bullshit.
So basically I was blackpilled at a very young age, but truly becoming blackpilled without the possibility to ever go back to believing in the bluepill happened at 17.
22 years old. Before i was just a bluepilled cuck tbh.
at 16 i sensed something weird
accepted it at 26
accepted it at 26
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Internalised it fully 3 months ago
I was bullied from young so I knew I was different from 4 onwards
I was bullied from young so I knew I was different from 4 onwards
i was redpilled at 14
blackpilled since i was 17
blackpilled since i was 17
red pilled 12 still not sure if full black pill
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Suspicions that it was about looks as early as 9. Strong suspicions at 14/15 but also strong denial. Finally at 18 I accept the truth through reading evolutionary psychology studies.
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