I really only had one friend throughout my life.
Knew him for about 4 years. Polar opposites, but we still meshed well. Its a bit odd to think back to it for me, because it was really before I started to see reality, see past the garbage gaslighting I got from my parents.
The guy was leagues ahead of me in terms of social skills. Knew everybody, actually had relationships and what not. I was kind of the quiet retard next to him, but at least we were close and I actually felt a sense of friendship for once.
In the final year or so, I really did start to see the cracks though. I was never introduced to any of his friends or given the chance to be around other people. I think it really did start to fully breakdown by the time he started using me to push himself up in front of girls. Blatantly lying about me, spreading shit that was more personal to me in front of other people. At that point, I had at least come to my senses and just stopped talking to the guy.
Its just so awful to think the one real friendship I had was nothing but a facade.
Not even considered human enough to have a friendship, just seen as a tool to make ones self look better.
Knew him for about 4 years. Polar opposites, but we still meshed well. Its a bit odd to think back to it for me, because it was really before I started to see reality, see past the garbage gaslighting I got from my parents.
The guy was leagues ahead of me in terms of social skills. Knew everybody, actually had relationships and what not. I was kind of the quiet retard next to him, but at least we were close and I actually felt a sense of friendship for once.
In the final year or so, I really did start to see the cracks though. I was never introduced to any of his friends or given the chance to be around other people. I think it really did start to fully breakdown by the time he started using me to push himself up in front of girls. Blatantly lying about me, spreading shit that was more personal to me in front of other people. At that point, I had at least come to my senses and just stopped talking to the guy.
Its just so awful to think the one real friendship I had was nothing but a facade.
Not even considered human enough to have a friendship, just seen as a tool to make ones self look better.
