If you were lucky enough to have friends, they all date, get married, have wives and kids, and basically never have time to even check up on you or send u a txt. You almost become desperate to try and keep the proverbial good old days alive, but eventually you are forced to accept and admit that those days are gone forever and will never happen again.
You eventually become alienated or estranged from the rest of your family, a combo of just completely different personalities, along with the eventual passing of key relatives that are the glue that keeps the family together, will result in you growing farther and farther apart from your family, if it hasn't already by this point.
You have no choice but to become self reliant. Asking for help from anyone of any kind will become less and less of an option. Friends become flakes and relatives who may have cared and been able to help eventually pass away. You either work hard enough to be able to eat, have a roof over your head, a vehicle, and a cell phone, or you end up as a straight up bum.
Time goes by a lot quicker, and not for the better, and the days are so dull and repetitive that you have trouble telling them apart. Normies like to joke about how this is due to my age, but the fact of the matter is I can't tell days apart because with rare exceptions, they all begin, occur, and end the same.
Peace of mind literally becomes a fucking alien concept. You're either sad, aggravated, or you're coping. I can't relax and unwind to save my life, and the sad thing is I'm oddly fine with that.
Celebrities and entertainers that you grow up with, and become fond of die. A lot of you aren't at a point where you can properly understand the concept of nostalgia, but nothing is more soul crushing than seeing someone who literally was an integral part of your childhood or teen years pass away. It serves as a painful reminder of how the times have changed, and how your youth and innocence are long gone and you will NEVER get them back.
Copes become increasingly ineffective and pointless. Drugs, alcohol, hookers, internet trolling, fighting, collections, movie binging, working out. All nice little time passers until that new car smell wears out, in which case it just becomes a waste of time and effort, yet you still find yourself eventually going back to them.
Too many health problems to count. Weight gain, hair loss, slower metabolism, lower testosterone, lower energy, aching bones, and yes, your dick WILL eventually have trouble getting hard. You may even have these weird dry fire deals where it feels like you nutted but nothing comes out. As of this post, I'm trying to come up with a convincing story to get my Dr. to possibly prescribe me Viagra or Cialis, which needless to say, is gonna be embarrassing as fuck because she's a woman and a family friend.
There might be others that I can't think of at the moment, but this is my current situation, and despite me not really knowing any of you guys, I sincerely wish you all have a future that is the opposite of this. I wish I could make it so no one ever has to experience this, and I sincerely apologize for not really having any special knowledge to share with you guys so that this doesn't happen to you. I just sincerely hope that by some way of miracle, you guys catch a break and not endure this, because it truly is a way of living I wish on no one.
