Serious Wanted to lay down and die during my night walk

[VλREN]

Few hours ago I went for my usual night walk around an hour after sunset. Anyway halfway through I got hit with this feeling of deep nihilism that this is my life forever and there’s no changing it. It stabbed me hard, just want to lay die and cease to exist.

odd feeling, but I did feel like complete shit for the entire day and now I feel fine

Also I tried to dig a trench this morning and I ended up failing

 

[SilverBullet]

There'll be times on my night walks where I feel like jumping in front of one of those wiggers who speed down the road.

 

[wereq]

Anyway halfway through I got hit with this feeling of deep nihilism that this is my life forever and there’s no changing it. It stabbed me hard, just want to lay die and cease to exist.

This is what I have been feeling as well. This stagnant old person lifestyle is very brutal suicide fuel. I cope with sleeping as much as possible. Wish I could just end my life but its not easy. Was reading the symptoms of this foid who took 2 gm of SN. She survived but did come down with sickness and hospitalization.

 

[VλREN]

stagnant old person lifestyle

 

[Animecel2D]

it is over

 

[InvoluntaryChigga]

That feeling when everyday feels the same and you know its gonna get worse

 

[Cuckoja]

I get you, im at work, already cried my heart out wondering what im going to do with my life and myself when i got nothing and no one.

Also I tried to dig a trench this morning and I ended up failing

What are you going to do with the trench?

 

[pauseforever]

Can relate. The last time I felt this way was walking down the street to the market, and suddenly this thought came to me, how I had paced down this same street countless times and how nothing changed

 

[Emba]

Ldad

 

[Emba]

What are you going to do with the trench?

I want to dig my own trench coat

 

[wereq]

That feeling when everyday feels the same and you know its gonna get worse

This is why I don't want to continue living, its because my future is dark and filled with doom.

 

[TooSomething]

Man, I wish you'd get an irl Jill Valentine and be happy, ngl.

 

[InvoluntaryChigga]

This is why I don't want to continue living, its because my future is dark and filled with doom.

Ur one of the few users here that shares the exact same views on this ngl

 

[wereq]

Ur one of the few users here that shares the exact same views on this ngl

 

[samsara]

 

[andrej]

it is over

 

[wasted12years]

Be glad you even have sunsets. I don't have any at this time of the year, dark and rainy 24/7. I'm thinking of going for nightwalks too, in the woods where i live, without a flashlight when it's pitch black, only the moonlight if there is any. It will probably make me fall asleep faster. If i survive and don't get mauled by wild boars or kicked by a moose. Wolves are rare.

 

[subhuman0]

Be glad you even have sunsets. I don't have any at this time of the year, dark and rainy 24/7. I'm thinking of going for nightwalks too, in the woods where i live, without a flashlight when it's pitch black, only the moonlight if there is any. It will probably make me fall asleep faster. If i survive and don't get mauled by wild boars or kicked by a moose. Wolves are rare.

I do this. Sometimes I go for a run and sometimes just walk listening to music.

 

[Computercel]

head to buy fruit

 

[romanstock]

Can relate. The last time I felt this way was walking down the street to the market, and suddenly this thought came to me, how I had paced down this same street countless times and how nothing changed

Sometimes I go for walks down old routes, like the bike path I used to ride from my old house to school, and reflect on how nothing's changed. I thought it would change, but nothing changed.