Most of the times when I wake up, I have no energy, i'm groggy and eventually the same feelings of emptyness that I felt the day before return and overwhelm me into wanting to do nothing but on the occasion i wake up and i have the energy of a thousand suns, i can feel something that feels like i have my soul back but only slightly it's a hard feeling to explain because it's hard for me to understand what i am evening feeling.
This feeling becomes a painful one, I have that "extra pep in my step" i'm ready to change my life around for the better but it's always happening at the middle of the night and i am unable to literally do anything, before i could go on a little ride around on my e bike experiencing the joy of the serene surroundings of the night. But that was literally stolen away from me, I am literally stuck at my home with nothing to do other than to browse the internet and play games. It's so crushing to know how this sudden spike of energy is quite literally wasted because of how uncommon it is for me wake up like this. It's frustrating and depressing that i am completely unable to use this energy, by the time day comes it's all washed up.
This feeling becomes a painful one, I have that "extra pep in my step" i'm ready to change my life around for the better but it's always happening at the middle of the night and i am unable to literally do anything, before i could go on a little ride around on my e bike experiencing the joy of the serene surroundings of the night. But that was literally stolen away from me, I am literally stuck at my home with nothing to do other than to browse the internet and play games. It's so crushing to know how this sudden spike of energy is quite literally wasted because of how uncommon it is for me wake up like this. It's frustrating and depressing that i am completely unable to use this energy, by the time day comes it's all washed up.
