So last year, exactly. I wrote this thread https://incels.is/threads/im-making-a-game.690701/
Now, forget about the thread itself, I'd just like to take a snippet out of it and dissect it
I wrote that, I thought that after spending a complete decade on pure LDAR mode of fapping and going on the internet because of how shit society and life treated me, I would suddenly be able to rewrite my entire broken brain pattern. I even said on some other thread I would spend 8 hours a day learning to draw
Was I fucking high at the time when I wrote that shit? I told myself 8 hours is too much and just do an hour, then I still got overwhelmed and said an hour is too much just do 15 minutes, and I still was overwhelmed and couldn't cope with putting pencil to paper everyday and have pretty much dropped it all, of all 365 days of the year. I have only drawn for like, 60, not a joke
LMAO, what a joke; I'm not worried about the game anymore; it was a pathetic come to Jesus moment because THIS SHIT IS NEVER GOING TO BE MADE. I'm just going to keep wanking and going on the internet because rotmaxxing is all I have been doing I'm not motivated or disciplined enough to change anything because it's easier to do that and I'm too much of a softcock to change anything in life. Maybe I'll try putting the pencil to paper or write an idea every now and then, but it's not good enough because the difference between the people that can draw, that can develop games, that can code, that can make assets and me, the brain-dead, dopamine high autistic retard is that these people had internal and external factors that motivated, pushed and forced them to improve like a goal in mind and superior intellect and they had positive experiences and vibes in their lives to be able to pursue their passions as early as possible and I didn't have any of that
I'll be 28 in 7 months, I have been told that it doesn't take too long to get skilled at something if you grind it out, I would believe that at 14 but I'm not a young person anymore. Furthermore, I didn't experience life and girls before I got to this point so what's the point of learning to draw? What's the point of producing a product? What's the point of trying to have a passion, if I will never be able to experience life and girls along the way? I will always be a pathetic "late bloomer" permabeg consumer stuck in tutorial hell forever, I will never be a great artist or a great game developer, I will be watching them from the sidelines wishing to live their live. It will take me into my 30's to even do basic shit probably, LOL
I will never know what it would've been like to made it
Now, forget about the thread itself, I'd just like to take a snippet out of it and dissect it
I wrote that, I thought that after spending a complete decade on pure LDAR mode of fapping and going on the internet because of how shit society and life treated me, I would suddenly be able to rewrite my entire broken brain pattern. I even said on some other thread I would spend 8 hours a day learning to draw
Was I fucking high at the time when I wrote that shit? I told myself 8 hours is too much and just do an hour, then I still got overwhelmed and said an hour is too much just do 15 minutes, and I still was overwhelmed and couldn't cope with putting pencil to paper everyday and have pretty much dropped it all, of all 365 days of the year. I have only drawn for like, 60, not a joke
LMAO, what a joke; I'm not worried about the game anymore; it was a pathetic come to Jesus moment because THIS SHIT IS NEVER GOING TO BE MADE. I'm just going to keep wanking and going on the internet because rotmaxxing is all I have been doing I'm not motivated or disciplined enough to change anything because it's easier to do that and I'm too much of a softcock to change anything in life. Maybe I'll try putting the pencil to paper or write an idea every now and then, but it's not good enough because the difference between the people that can draw, that can develop games, that can code, that can make assets and me, the brain-dead, dopamine high autistic retard is that these people had internal and external factors that motivated, pushed and forced them to improve like a goal in mind and superior intellect and they had positive experiences and vibes in their lives to be able to pursue their passions as early as possible and I didn't have any of that
I'll be 28 in 7 months, I have been told that it doesn't take too long to get skilled at something if you grind it out, I would believe that at 14 but I'm not a young person anymore. Furthermore, I didn't experience life and girls before I got to this point so what's the point of learning to draw? What's the point of producing a product? What's the point of trying to have a passion, if I will never be able to experience life and girls along the way? I will always be a pathetic "late bloomer" permabeg consumer stuck in tutorial hell forever, I will never be a great artist or a great game developer, I will be watching them from the sidelines wishing to live their live. It will take me into my 30's to even do basic shit probably, LOL
I will never know what it would've been like to made it
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