it really is guaranteed constant implicit humiliation (at times explicit too if youre a normfag with some semblance of a social life)
everywhere you turn its person after person sitting/walking in pairs with someone else if not in hordes and as you anxiously pass them by you cant help but wonder why your life ended up so different from theirs. its even worse when you have to sit next to them; whenever i have large breaks in between my classes i either spend the entire time wandering the campus trying to find an empty space to sit or just take the bus (also sometimes walk) to the next city all just to come right back after i make the commute because being sedentary around normies is honestly torture. their disgust for you is palpable, at each laugh you feel as if theyre outwardly ridiculing you but wont ever look out of fear of catching their eye, you overhear their conversations where cuntwhores and mindless cattle babble about their social lives and all things foreign to you.
i remember earlier on in the term as im a first year and thought that maybe just maybe things could be different from hs (i didnt and will never have any real solid hope for a gf or some roastie vagina i could put my penis in but thought at the very least i could make some friends) and did as all the redditards and boomers say and joined a club. i joined their discord, lurked a bit, finally resolved to go to one of the irl meetups, and what did i get out of it? nothing. absolutely nothing happened, save for a few pitiful glances from those in groups and some looks i took as disdain. i just sat their silently staring at the wall and left halfway through. i remember after leaving i was standing near this hall next to the campus park smoking and a group of foids from the 'event' walked by and idk if one of them recognized me from it or what but just gave me this weird look as they passed by and thought to myself how thats all ill ever be. some freakish oddity to be gawked at by the fortune and those who dont have to live as miserably as i do.
i wanted to drop out from my first week in and with each day i wonder how ill make it through the remaining semester let alone the next 3 years
everywhere you turn its person after person sitting/walking in pairs with someone else if not in hordes and as you anxiously pass them by you cant help but wonder why your life ended up so different from theirs. its even worse when you have to sit next to them; whenever i have large breaks in between my classes i either spend the entire time wandering the campus trying to find an empty space to sit or just take the bus (also sometimes walk) to the next city all just to come right back after i make the commute because being sedentary around normies is honestly torture. their disgust for you is palpable, at each laugh you feel as if theyre outwardly ridiculing you but wont ever look out of fear of catching their eye, you overhear their conversations where cuntwhores and mindless cattle babble about their social lives and all things foreign to you.
i remember earlier on in the term as im a first year and thought that maybe just maybe things could be different from hs (i didnt and will never have any real solid hope for a gf or some roastie vagina i could put my penis in but thought at the very least i could make some friends) and did as all the redditards and boomers say and joined a club. i joined their discord, lurked a bit, finally resolved to go to one of the irl meetups, and what did i get out of it? nothing. absolutely nothing happened, save for a few pitiful glances from those in groups and some looks i took as disdain. i just sat their silently staring at the wall and left halfway through. i remember after leaving i was standing near this hall next to the campus park smoking and a group of foids from the 'event' walked by and idk if one of them recognized me from it or what but just gave me this weird look as they passed by and thought to myself how thats all ill ever be. some freakish oddity to be gawked at by the fortune and those who dont have to live as miserably as i do.
i wanted to drop out from my first week in and with each day i wonder how ill make it through the remaining semester let alone the next 3 years
