Mortis
The Senator of Suffering & Minister of Misery
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In the past sleeping was just another activity you just don't feel anything by, but now I genuinely get excited like I am going to do something fun or thrilling.
I genuinely sit on my couch thinking "Oh boy just 4 more hours and I'll be tired enough to sleep!". I swear that death lite I have every night is maybe the only reason I am alive today, life is too brutal to expierence it 24/7, I am glad we spend 30 years of our life sleeping.
Is this the final stage of depression? If I am getting excited by being unconscious (because I rarely have dreams), will I be excited enough to have the courage to kill myself one day?
I genuinely sit on my couch thinking "Oh boy just 4 more hours and I'll be tired enough to sleep!". I swear that death lite I have every night is maybe the only reason I am alive today, life is too brutal to expierence it 24/7, I am glad we spend 30 years of our life sleeping.
Is this the final stage of depression? If I am getting excited by being unconscious (because I rarely have dreams), will I be excited enough to have the courage to kill myself one day?
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