LostSoulUK
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- Dec 11, 2023
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All my life I've been treated like a fuckin alien just because I'm highly introverted with a big nose and short height (5'5). Every environment I've been treated like shit, ignored and spoken down to. I've often been bullied because of my nose from management. I was even locked in a freezer 1 time at a fast food job. I'm tired of existing only to suffer, a passenger to other peoples happiness, people who have no compassion and understanding whatsoever. I know you guys can resonate with this, it's a loneliness that only us guys can truly understand. I work in a school, predominantly around women which is hell. For over a year I've been ignored, patronised, spoken down to and treated with contempt, I may as well not exist despite being effective at my job which I'm proud of but I'm desperate for a career change. On top of this, I've experienced domestic abuse from a brother who has threatened to stab me amongst other death threats over many years. I recently made a statement against him at the police station but he wasn't charged due to insufficient evidence. Throughout this I was gaslighted by own mum to invalidate me and enable a sociopath.
The mental health that goes with that is insufferable, no one will truly understand anxiety and depression like we do. It made me not want to live but I'm still standing somehow. At the very least it makes us more understanding people, unlike most judgemental people in this society. I have a good heart as reflected in my work safeguarding and supporting learning. And yet, I have nothing to show for it but depression and endless rejection. Someone posted a thread about a teacher who killed himself, I can confirm that it is brutal to work in this public environment as a social reject. Every cloud but our cloud is nothin but rain and misery. This is my 1st post here so just wanted to introduce myself amongst fellow sufferers.
The mental health that goes with that is insufferable, no one will truly understand anxiety and depression like we do. It made me not want to live but I'm still standing somehow. At the very least it makes us more understanding people, unlike most judgemental people in this society. I have a good heart as reflected in my work safeguarding and supporting learning. And yet, I have nothing to show for it but depression and endless rejection. Someone posted a thread about a teacher who killed himself, I can confirm that it is brutal to work in this public environment as a social reject. Every cloud but our cloud is nothin but rain and misery. This is my 1st post here so just wanted to introduce myself amongst fellow sufferers.
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