Treated like a fuckin alien my whole life

[LostSoulUK]

All my life I've been treated like a fuckin alien just because I'm highly introverted with a big nose and short height (5'5). Every environment I've been treated like shit, ignored and spoken down to. I've often been bullied because of my nose from management. I was even locked in a freezer 1 time at a fast food job. I'm tired of existing only to suffer, a passenger to other peoples happiness, people who have no compassion and understanding whatsoever. I know you guys can resonate with this, it's a loneliness that only us guys can truly understand. I work in a school, predominantly around women which is hell. For over a year I've been ignored, patronised, spoken down to and treated with contempt, I may as well not exist despite being effective at my job which I'm proud of but I'm desperate for a career change. On top of this, I've experienced domestic abuse from a brother who has threatened to stab me amongst other death threats over many years. I recently made a statement against him at the police station but he wasn't charged due to insufficient evidence. Throughout this I was gaslighted by own mum to invalidate me and enable a sociopath.

The mental health that goes with that is insufferable, no one will truly understand anxiety and depression like we do. It made me not want to live but I'm still standing somehow. At the very least it makes us more understanding people, unlike most judgemental people in this society. I have a good heart as reflected in my work safeguarding and supporting learning. And yet, I have nothing to show for it but depression and endless rejection. Someone posted a thread about a teacher who killed himself, I can confirm that it is brutal to work in this public environment as a social reject. Every cloud but our cloud is nothin but rain and misery. This is my 1st post here so just wanted to introduce myself amongst fellow sufferers.

 

[nice_try]

42

42? As in 42yo?

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Wow...I was mistaken.

 

[Arnocel]

42? As in 42yo?

he copied that from somewhere else for sure, and accidentally copied the reply feature with it.

 

[Incel TV]

Some lives really aren’t worth experiencing

 

[nice_try]

he copied that from somewhere else for sure, and accidentally copied the reply feature with it.

Oh wow, you're smart. I saw the "Reply" but I wasn't aware that it came from copy pasting.

 

[asdfghjqbbbb]

welcome to autism

 

[Rabbi Schneerson]

Title

 

[LostSoulUK]

42? As in 42yo?

sorry that was typo, I'm 34 so not far off. As soon as we hit our 30s it feels we're chasing time. The weight of regret is insufferable. I feel like I've wasted my whole life as a recluse rotting away, but then I'm treated like shit regardless. Videogames are my only cope, I just wish I was loved and had things to look forward to like nice holidays with a loving family. These are primal needs that we're being deprived of just because we don't fit the conventional standard of this twisted society.

If your perceived indifferent your treated as such.

 

[Arnocel]

Oh wow, you're smart. I saw the "Reply" but I wasn't aware that it came from copy pasting.

edited the reply part out now that i pointed it out.

 

[rhodie]

he copied that from somewhere else for sure, and accidentally copied the reply feature with it.

 

[nice_try]

sorry that was typo, I'm 34 so not far off. As soon as we hit our 30s it feels we're chasing time. The weight of regret is insufferable. I feel like I've wasted my whole life as a recluse rotting away, but then I'm treated like shit regardless. Videogames are my only cope, I just wish I was loved and had things to look forward to like nice holidays with a loving family. These are primal needs that we're being deprived of just because we don't fit the conventional standard of this twisted society.

If your perceived indifferent your treated as such.

Stop larping, man.

 

[IncelsNeverCry]

So, what day will we meet up and rape some foids? (for posterity Mr Andersson)

 

[LostSoulUK]

welcome to autism

I definitely have traits of asperger's, some people have even suggested I may be on the spectrum as I'm unusually quiet but I think it's attributed to social anxiety. My anxiety can get so bad that I have anxiety attacks which can be unrelenting. My depression never leaves me, I'm incapable of feeling positive emotions as a result of a lifetime of loneliness. Yet people cry over a break up when they're practically inundated with options at their disposal for love and affection. Meanwhile we're lucky to get a single fuckin response, we're repeatedly ghosted or blocked time and again.

 

[Arnocel]

All my life I've been treated like a fuckin alien just because I'm highly introverted with a big nose and short height (5'5). Every environment I've been treated like shit, ignored and spoken down to. I've often been bullied because of my nose from management. I was even locked in a freezer 1 time at a fast food job. I'm tired of existing only to suffer, a passenger to other peoples happiness, people who have no compassion and understanding whatsoever. I know you guys can resonate with this, it's a loneliness that only us guys can truly understand. I work in a school, predominantly around women which is hell. For over a year I've been ignored, patronised, spoken down to and treated with contempt, I may as well not exist despite being effective at my job which I'm proud of but I'm desperate for a career change. On top of this, I've experienced domestic abuse from a brother who has threatened to stab me amongst other death threats over many years. I recently made a statement against him at the police station but he wasn't charged due to insufficient evidence. Throughout this I was gaslighted by own mum to invalidate me and enable a sociopath.

The mental health that goes with that is insufferable, no one will truly understand anxiety and depression like we do. It made me not want to live but I'm still standing somehow. At the very least it makes us more understanding people, unlike most judgemental people in this society. I have a good heart as reflected in my work safeguarding and supporting learning. And yet, I have nothing to show for it but depression and endless rejection. Someone posted a thread about a teacher who killed himself, I can confirm that it is brutal to work in this public environment as a social reject. Every cloud but our cloud is nothin but rain and misery. This is my 1st post here so just wanted to introduce myself amongst fellow sufferers.

42

reply

while coping the text he accidentally might've copied the "reply" text

 

[Kaz馬鹿みたい]

while coping the text he accidentally might've copied the "reply" text

Smartest infiltrator

 

[jonthesperg]

welcome to autism

 

[LostSoulUK]

ye it was from a reply I posted on a video about some guy who is living this life of hell.

I just wanted to share my story, I've copied my post over as its relative to my story and life experience, I added some more details to give some more context.

 

[Autistic Uggo]

People have treat me the same way all my life. The bullying, trauma and isolation has made me doubt my own humanity. At this point, I'm so detached from the lived experiences of others that I might as well be an alien.

Some lives really aren’t worth experiencing

Mine certainly isn't.

welcome to autism

When coupled with sub 6 looks, autism is a one-way ticket to a shitty life.

 

[Nig nog pilled]

All my life I've been treated like a fuckin alien just because I'm highly introverted with a big nose and short height (5'5). Every environment I've been treated like shit, ignored and spoken down to. I've often been bullied because of my nose from management. I was even locked in a freezer 1 time at a fast food job. I'm tired of existing only to suffer, a passenger to other peoples happiness, people who have no compassion and understanding whatsoever. I know you guys can resonate with this, it's a loneliness that only us guys can truly understand. I work in a school, predominantly around women which is hell. For over a year I've been ignored, patronised, spoken down to and treated with contempt, I may as well not exist despite being effective at my job which I'm proud of but I'm desperate for a career change. On top of this, I've experienced domestic abuse from a brother who has threatened to stab me amongst other death threats over many years. I recently made a statement against him at the police station but he wasn't charged due to insufficient evidence. Throughout this I was gaslighted by own mum to invalidate me and enable a sociopath.

The mental health that goes with that is insufferable, no one will truly understand anxiety and depression like we do. It made me not want to live but I'm still standing somehow. At the very least it makes us more understanding people, unlike most judgemental people in this society. I have a good heart as reflected in my work safeguarding and supporting learning. And yet, I have nothing to show for it but depression and endless rejection. Someone posted a thread about a teacher who killed himself, I can confirm that it is brutal to work in this public environment as a social reject. Every cloud but our cloud is nothin but rain and misery. This is my 1st post here so just wanted to introduce myself amongst fellow sufferers.

you acoustic?

 

[LostSoulUK]

Smartest infiltrator

yep I accidentally copied the reply part, my bad ha. But that's my story in a nutshell, just saves me time from repeating myself. I don't know what's worse for me, my beak shaped nose or sub human height (5'5). I may as well be fuckin penguin from Batman. My eyes are my best feature but it's undermined by this massive beak I have on my face. If I could change either my height or nose I would change my nose in a heartbeat. I could of course get surgery but that would be my life savings gone as its 10 thousand here in UK for a nose procedure. With a glaring imperfection like this, it leads to mistreatment and clear prejudice by those around you. My nose and my short height are definitely factors why I'm treated like I'm nothin, most staff barely acknowledge my existence, most have barely said 2 words to me since I started over a year ago which is why I want to gtfo out that place but I'm lazy and won't get these hours again, I work from 12.30, even that I struggle to get up for due to my insomnia. Since a kid I've had sleep issues which typically goes hand in hand with anxiety and depression.

I see your a Tekken fan, haven't played that series since Tekken 5 but I've always found it fun as hell. I suck at fighting games though, couldn't get into the latest MK and Street Fighter. Lately I've been playing God of war 2018 and Alan Wake 2.

 

[LostSoulUK]

People have treat me the same way all my life. The bullying, trauma and isolation has made me doubt my own humanity. At this point, I'm so detached from the lived experiences of others that I might as well be an alien.


Mine certainly isn't.


When coupled with sub 6 looks, autism is a one-way ticket to a shitty life.

I'm sorry to hear you've been through that, its reassuring to me that I'm at least not the only one who has suffered this fucked up life. This society paints this rosy picture but life ain't a bed of roses as reflected by this fucked up conflict in Gaza which really highlighted the depravity of humanity. I was tested for autism many years ago but it was ruled out which doesn't make sense because I have many of the characteristics. My whole life I've struggled to socialise and fit in, I'm unusually quiet around people, I'll never speak to people unless they make the 1st move. But I think it's attributed to social anxiety, shyness, insecurity, self confidence, clinical depression, generalised anxiety, all of these issues which I have. It's easy to be get these issues conflicted with autism as some of the traits overlap. I regret my reclusive lifestyle, its fucked me over, idle mind is the devils workshop as they say.

Whilst I struggle to communicate, its more out of extreme shyness more than anything because I can open up to the right person which is rare. I have no sensory needs, I've even supported children with autism through my work. I'm very articulate and I'd love a career in writing someday. Last year was more rewarding as a teaching assistant as I was more involved in the learning aspect, supporting their vocabulary and comprehension of words for instance but now its now more play based which is fuckin boring. I twitch a lot with my eyes which looks odd as fuck to the naked eye. My sleep issues make me twitch like crazy as it heightens the anxiety. I have a massive inferiority complex, I avoid alpha's or people in authority like the plague. I just don't relate to most people like married men or mums or other bluepilled people who have this life on easy mode.

 

[Lawrence]

You are indeed articulate, one of the quality posters here and I hope you do pursue a career as a writer.- Glad to have your voice here

 

[bus27jihad]

welcome to autism

 

[asdfghjqbbbb]

You are indeed articulate, one of the quality posters here and I hope you do pursue a career as a writer.- Glad to have your voice here

what do you mean a "writer"?

a writer of what?

 

[ItsovERfucks]

Dnr+larp

 

[LostSoulUK]

You are indeed articulate, one of the quality posters here and I hope you do pursue a career as a writer.- Glad to have your voice here

Thanks man, I've only just seen this update so just responding. English is my best subject, I got a C+ in school, failed my other subjects. I guess I have a unique perspective as I work in a school, I'm probably the only guy here who works with children or any supportive capacity for that matter. I would like a more chilled career as it's very stressful working with children which isn't good for my anxiety. But I would have to re-train into something else entirely, essentially sacrificing years of experience, a lot of us are in that same boat. Maybe something office related which would be more chill as I'm on the front line managing the behaviour of children which is so demanding, it really tests your tolerance and composure.

I've also experienced domestic abuse, mental health, loneliness like many fellow sufferers. I was suspended from Gamefaqs as I posted high IQ posts which was too much for the general demographic on that site. I'm basically notorious on that site, my topics would typically receive upwards of 100+ replies but this led to me being slandered and vilified based on the controversial subject matter about my life which had no place on a dedicated gaming forum. So I've essentially migrated to here as my struggles in life are reflective of an incel who has never fitted into society.

 

[LostSoulUK]

Brief update:

I went to a staff training day today in a room full of staff and most of them completely ignored I was in the room. I was shaking with anxiety due to lack of sleep and most of them completely blanked me as they've always done. Then I had my lunch, took it in the staff room which was packed full of people. I was sat on the corner of the sofa eating my lunch in total awkward silence as they all serenaded each other with talk of fancy holidays and fancy homes. Then we returned to the training and the group I was with ignored me further, not a single word during the final 2 hours. Then I left and they didn't say bye. This is the treatment I've received for over a year at this place. The look I receive is 1 of a serial killer because of my sub human nose and height. I'm tired of being treated like an alien .