Toxic Parents

[thallium0000]

Gave me underlying mental health by not letting me hang out with friends at sleepovers and told me not to speak to foids throughout skl. Even though im non nt and cant speak to foids.

Now im an adult and they insult me saying im non-nt and have no game thats why i have no foid.

Even though its there stupid actioms which made me a shut in

 

[Med Anime]

weird that your parents even know what NT or game mean in the first place

 

[parzurnacs]

friends at sleepovers

im non-nt

Okay GrAYcel

 

[nice_try]

Now im an adult and they insult me saying im non-nt and have no game thats why i have no foid.

That's not an insult, that's just a fact.

 

[thallium0000]

That's not an insult, that's just a fact.

well obvs im going to be those things as they have negatively impacted my life its inevitable from what they drilled in my head when i was young

 

[nice_try]

well obvs im going to be those things as they have negatively impacted my life its inevitable from what they drilled in my head when i was young

Same, but realizing that they fucked your mind is the first step to fixing it.

 

[Antifem Lord]

Gave me underlying mental health by not letting me hang out with friends at sleepovers and told me not to speak to foids throughout skl. Even though im non nt and cant speak to foids.

Now im an adult and they insult me saying im non-nt and have no game thats why i have no foid.

Even though its there stupid actioms which made me a shut in

Same my parents sabotaged my social life they also were very religious

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Okay GrAYcel

Yep.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

weird that your parents even know what NT or game mean in the first place

Perhaps he sent one of his parents articles repeatedly since that person regularly disregarded them.

 

[thallium0000]

Perhaps he sent one of his parents articles repeatedly since that person regularly disregarded them.

What r u saying retarded

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

What r u saying retarded

I'm saying that the artificial environment we are forced in now is quite different to what we experienced previously.

 

[nice_try]

I'm saying that the artificial environment we are forced in now is quite different to what we experienced previously.

that makes sense

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

that makes sense

In multiple senses.

 

[nice_try]

In multiple senses.

very true

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

very true

Indeed. As a child, I was sluggish and depressed. I'd curdle into a ball and start fantasizing to ignore the constant violent arguing between my parents.

I was homeschooled due to health problems and bullying, which meant I sat in isolation daily while my parents constantly argued and hit each-other. My father would unlock our house door after work each day and start violent confrontations with Mother. I'd sit in my room and fidget while they were arguing.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Cannot say.

I'll elaborate on my paternal history, a bit:

I'd visit my paternal grandparents when I was a young child, often because my parents were arguing at home. While visiting, my younger cousin would use my grandparents' computer. I would sit on the sidelines and fidget with pencils and other objects, dropping them and upsetting my paternal grandfather.

Katerina often spoke of wanting to be "freed" from her parents and their wishes.

Should use foids as meat shields...

 

[ADHD_cel]

My dad is a narcissistic abuser, and my mom a clueless enabler, kek

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

I was bullied in school and shoved repeatedly.

When I was a young child, I'd sit with Mother and she would tell me about her negative experiences. She was working from early night to early morning.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

My dad is a narcissistic abuser, and my mom a clueless enabler, kek

When I was a four-year-old, my parents and I lived in a duplex, where my father would hit Mother and damage the walls, resulting in holes near a wooden desk she used for sewing. I recall pouring soap in my eyes at this age to stop them from arguing.

When we moved, my father would regularly come home and argue with Mother over anything he disliked. He broke the windows in our living room as well as the windows in our kitchen, he broke a "Leopard Statue", he broke our kitchen table, he broke plates, he threw Mother's computer and clothes into the garbage bin. He'd regularly pound on Mother's room door(Used for crafts). He'd yell at Mother as he was driving her to work.

My mother, as kind as she may be, used to grab me very forcefully(By the neck, as I was fidgeting with items; I would ache from it) and repeatedly tell me "Do you hear me!?! If people see you doing that, they will think you are men-tally retar-ded!" while shaking me and shaking the item near my eyes. She would tell me how embarrassing it is to have an autistic son who fidgets with items as a form of stimulation. Other times, she would hit me. When I said, "Please don't hit me!" once, she started laughing.

One day, Mother was asked by my father to write a check, which she did. However, he was angry because she was drying off after a shower. This led him to shove her onto the floor(She was naked) and kick her legs repeatedly, which I was present for and saw. He also broke her fingers and cut her knuckles, injured her knees and kicked her abdomen. Our utilities were cut off three times due to failure to pay, and the result was living with my paternal grandparents for weeks at a time. On the day we moved in with my maternal grandparents, me and Mother sat in the dark since my father didn't pay the utility bill("Well, then leave"; he left the house after yelling, which I hid from).

 

[Mortis]

That's not an insult, that's just a fact.

 

[nice_try]

I want to give this boy a firm hug and tell him that he's sufficient

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Yes.

My maternal half-cousins and half-aunt would chat with my step-grandfather about myself and Mother living elsewhere. (I heard their conversations often)

"She never does any housework" (Objectively false. I have other problems with her, however...)

"They're leeching from us" (I never asked them for food or even clothing. I very rarely spoke to them.)

He would get upset when Mother would ask him to pick up our prescriptions from stores. He'd also get upset when Mother asked to visit grocery stores. This is despite taking my half-relatives to stores/fast food restaurants multiple times weekly. Medical appointments as well(When medical transportation wasn't an option).

My half-aunt's lovely statements:

"[Mother] sits around all day"

"I thought [Mother] said they had no food" (Me and Mother relied on food pantry boxes/SNAP)

"[Intellau] will tell his mother if we bully him" (Maternal half-cousins; they abused my younger half-cousin somewhat since she was reluctant to do so.)

As a child, my half-aunt would patronize me for my autistic behavior. She would criticize my sluggish movements and depressed demeanor. "Hurry up [Intellau]!" - I also had social cue problems and misunderstood instructions from her.

They are kleptomaniacs; they would take portions of our food home after "visiting".

Lastly:

"(I never asked them for food or even clothing. I very rarely spoke to them.)"

Indeed. I was very grateful when my grandmother stopped giving me meals at the age of seventeen due to her view of me as an ingrate. She often said "[Intellau] was born with a silver spoon in his mouth" because I was anxious and struggling to help her with house tasks due to my NLD(I would help them with laundry, unpacking groceries, washing dishes, fetching items they needed, ...).

 

[Med Anime]

Perhaps he sent one of his parents articles repeatedly since that person regularly disregarded them.

true, i just didn't notice that in the past but now it's very clear to me.
it's time related thing also, the fabrication of time itself is ruined and our existence is damaged now

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

true, i just didn't notice that in the past but now it's very clear to me.

Probably sent it to a foid.

The other may have been an absentee, providing no guidance and actively evading responsibility.