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Writing this as a diary or something I never really used forums so im not sure how this works I've recently started to feel like none of this matters my brain has become so foggy and I'm not sure why I recently have these moments where I can't seem to find enjoyment in anything, food I used to like, esexing with girls on discord masturbating just none of it gives me enjoyment and I feel like I'm in perpetual suffering even staring at whores irl just doesn't give me any form of enjoyment there is nothing here nobody I have no "friends" and the people that I do talk too have friends that are way more interesting than me I am nothing my life means nothing and I'm not sure what to do, I used to think I could looksmax or maybe get rich off crypto and then live some "chad" lifestyle but it honestly just feels like none of that would even give me happiness there is this feeling in my heart like im constantly just tethering between being emotionless and being slight sad its very annoying because when you're sad the more sad you are I feel it *pause halfway through writing this out the corner of my eye I noticed my classmate tapping her feet and she is wearing tight pants for around 30 seconds I was staring at her thighs jiggle and shake but I'm too scared to talk to a foid like that since they would just reject me like alot of foids have done before and I don't know what to do I feel like if this sigma blackpill culture never existed I'd still be a normie playing league of legends and I used to be happier before all of this but I don't know how to escape.
