I feel nothing towards my mom

[D. B. Gooner]

I've never felt anything towards her. I've never been happy to see her. I've always told myself that I love her because she does love me, and she finances me. But I think it's time to face reality, I just don't love her.

She's a mean-spirited low IQ narcissist and she made me develop deep psychological problems that ruined my life. I always feel deeply annoyed when she tries to interact with me. I think it's fair to say I don't love her. I don't owe her love, and love can't be faked.

And she always calls me out because she's insecure "You hate me" and I have to roll my eyes, sigh and say "No, I love you". But she has always been right.

Honestly, I think when she dies I'm gonna feel so much relief. Like a curse has been lifted off of me. Like a camera that has been following me my whole life had just ran out of battery. I'm gonna be thrown into a world I'm too incompetent to survive in, but I will be less inhibited.

I love using .is as a non-responding psychiatrist, writing stuff like this out deffo helps me.

In case you're bored enough to wanna know more about my mom and myself here's a string of threads that explain the situation:

My mothers specific narcissistic behavior

I've already made a similar thread about myself https://incels.is/threads/messy-thread-specific-struggles-as-a-narcissist.871160/ Both me and my mother heavily depend on others validation, but while I'm passive, avoidant, introverted, she is active, agressive, extroverted. She is also very low...

incels.is

(Theres a new thread linked within each thread)

 

[Serpents reign]

My mother was very emotionally manipulative and psychologically abusive towards me and my father encouraged her to abuse me I wish I was aborted I hated that half Jewish bitch so much I'm glad she's dead I'm glad both my parents are dead they ill prepared me for a future I can't handle now I live in poverty

 

[Loliraider]

I used to regularly fap to my htb mom when she was younger. Sometimes I snuck into her bedroom and wrapped her panties around my cock

 

[koala bear]

my mom flirted with my old friends and i hate her for it

 

[PLS HALP ME]

Minha mãe flertou com meus antigos amigos e eu a odeio por isso.

 

[PLS HALP ME]

I used to regularly fap to my htb mom when she was younger. Sometimes I snuck into her bedroom and wrapped her panties around my cock

 

[SubhumanOldcel]

Same.

 

[cathuluelitist]

I used to regularly fap to my htb mom when she was younger. Sometimes I snuck into her bedroom and wrapped her panties around my cock

I did something similar from 4-9. Idk why, I was watching weird YouTube stories of girls who looked like my mom getting sold to prostitution. I had similar weird sexual drab with other members of my family as well, I really don't know what caused it. I was enamored by Freud a few years ago because of all these strange things I did, and it got me into bernay since I wanted to figure out how propaganda and the subliminal worked in practice. I'm immune to the fed wars going on in the altrght because of this. I see right through malicious actors.

 

[Loliraider]

I did something similar from 4-9. Idk why, I was watching weird YouTube stories of girls who looked like my mom getting sold to prostitution. I had similar weird sexual drab with other members of my family as well, I really don't know what caused it. I was enamored by Freud a few years ago because of all these strange things I did, and it got me into bernay since I wanted to figure out how propaganda and the subliminal worked in practice. I'm immune to the fed wars going on in the altrght because of this. I see right through malicious actors.

Yeah, I think it's pretty normal especially at that age when your mom is basically the only foid in your life. I had dreams about fucking my mom too. Still get em every now and then, but it's very rare now cause she's an old hag.

 

[kіng]

My mother is nice

 

[Renegade#1]

trucels were treated like trash by their pos toilet mothers

 

[thevineyardworker]

I was enamored by Freud a few years ago because of all these strange things I did, and it got me into bernay since I wanted to figure out how propaganda and the subliminal worked in practice.

What is a good starting place to learn Freud?

 

[kay']

You might regret these thoughts when she actually dies, tag me if that happens because i have the same thoughts regarding both my parents but deep down i still love them eventho 90% of my problems are because of them

 

[Currydealer]

My mother is nice

 

[Matrix0_]

I feel the same towards my dad lol

Do you feel bad sometimes when u remember how ur mom loved you so much at one point in your life? That's the only reason I don't cut tires with my dad. He's been a negative factor in my life always, but there are good memories

 

[Matrix0_]

You might regret these thoughts when she actually dies, tag me if that happens because i have the same thoughts regarding both my parents but deep down i still love them eventho 90% of my problems are because of them

Relatable

 

[D. B. Gooner]

I feel the same towards my dad lol

Do you feel bad sometimes when u remember how ur mom loved you so much at one point in your life? That's the only reason I don't cut tires with my dad. He's been a negative factor in my life always, but there are good memories

She still does love me.

 

[Cryo]

I feel ok towards my mom. She makes me food.

 

[captchawaffen]

My mother was very emotionally manipulative and psychologically abusive towards me and my father encouraged her to abuse me I wish I was aborted I hated that half Jewish bitch so much I'm glad she's dead I'm glad both my parents are dead they ill prepared me for a future I can't handle now I live in poverty

 

[captchawaffen]

I used to regularly fap to my htb mom when she was younger. Sometimes I snuck into her bedroom and wrapped her panties around my cock

Most horrifying thing I've read on the forum so far

 

[Matrix0_]

Most horrifying thing I've read on the forum so far

wtf

 

[RuudVanNistelrooy]

Those kind of mothers tend to create neurotic and withdrawn children.

 

[chudt320]

I used to regularly fap to my htb mom when she was younger. Sometimes I snuck into her bedroom and wrapped her panties around my cock

What did i just read