My job is relatively stressful. As much as I try to wake up every day super motivated to work, my incelibate insists on draining a little of the small motivation that I have left. As usual, I arrive late at the service, and yesterday, after going through a terrible day where I met someone I hurt and failed to explain me, resulted in the delay today.
I can not walk about 30 seconds into the yard of the service that I'm already a bully target. So one of the normies I hate most decided to scream my name and associate my name with a bad joke they invented on me one day when I could not go to work because it was raining and I fell into a mire. So I said, "Fuck you, you fucking bastard," and then I sliced my throat in a hint of hate. Minutes later, I decided to go up to that normie and explain, but not only explain, require, that he had to give me the same respect I give to him. I got too close to his ear to speak discreetly, but with hate in my voice. Suddenly, another normie appears to me defending the first. Not only defending, began to offend me and say that this was not a place to argue with the guy. Even the first normie had to contain the second because if there was a fight there, everyone would be fired, but I kept saying that the guy in question should not make fun of my disgrace because I do not do the same with him. I didn't retreat.
At the end of the day, we were laughing, of course each in his corner, for two different reasons.
Because I knew that the first normie speaks ill of everyone in the company, including the guy who defended him from me. And the normie I was attacking, because He knew he is a bastard and still had stupid people to defend him.
But what is the conclusion of all this?
First, I really feel bad having to leave my courtesy zone to act like an animal with other people. It just makes me feel so bad. But the second relief I had is, I need to learn how to fight. You never know when someone with malice will act with such cowardice against you.
I can not walk about 30 seconds into the yard of the service that I'm already a bully target. So one of the normies I hate most decided to scream my name and associate my name with a bad joke they invented on me one day when I could not go to work because it was raining and I fell into a mire. So I said, "Fuck you, you fucking bastard," and then I sliced my throat in a hint of hate. Minutes later, I decided to go up to that normie and explain, but not only explain, require, that he had to give me the same respect I give to him. I got too close to his ear to speak discreetly, but with hate in my voice. Suddenly, another normie appears to me defending the first. Not only defending, began to offend me and say that this was not a place to argue with the guy. Even the first normie had to contain the second because if there was a fight there, everyone would be fired, but I kept saying that the guy in question should not make fun of my disgrace because I do not do the same with him. I didn't retreat.
At the end of the day, we were laughing, of course each in his corner, for two different reasons.
Because I knew that the first normie speaks ill of everyone in the company, including the guy who defended him from me. And the normie I was attacking, because He knew he is a bastard and still had stupid people to defend him.
But what is the conclusion of all this?
First, I really feel bad having to leave my courtesy zone to act like an animal with other people. It just makes me feel so bad. But the second relief I had is, I need to learn how to fight. You never know when someone with malice will act with such cowardice against you.
