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Some of you may have seen my previous post where I said that my female cousins would be finishing school today. One of them finished 6th grade, while the other one finished junior high. I said I was gonna alcoholmaxx so that I would have the courage to talk to them and maybe take a few pictures with them. After all, I hadn’t seen them in over a year.
However, I started drinking too early. They had their ceremony at 11:00, and I started drinking at 10:00. So when it was finally 11:00, I wasn’t as drunk anymore. I drank 30 minutes too early. Had I drank at 10:30, I would’ve been drunk at 11:00. I fucked up. I really wanted to get a picture with my cousins. Today was an important day for them.
Anyway, when both of my cousins arrived, I waved at them and they looked at me, but they didn’t wave back. They completely ignored me. I feel devastated and want to cry right now. They really don’t care about me. I’m having suicidal thoughts right now. I feel so worthless and pathetic. I regret this. I shouldn’t have alcoholmaxxed. I should just kill myself.
However, I started drinking too early. They had their ceremony at 11:00, and I started drinking at 10:00. So when it was finally 11:00, I wasn’t as drunk anymore. I drank 30 minutes too early. Had I drank at 10:30, I would’ve been drunk at 11:00. I fucked up. I really wanted to get a picture with my cousins. Today was an important day for them.
Anyway, when both of my cousins arrived, I waved at them and they looked at me, but they didn’t wave back. They completely ignored me. I feel devastated and want to cry right now. They really don’t care about me. I’m having suicidal thoughts right now. I feel so worthless and pathetic. I regret this. I shouldn’t have alcoholmaxxed. I should just kill myself.
