Jake Roberts
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As if I needed more shit to make my already terrible life worse, I have been cursed with the affliction of tinnitus. A constant high-pitched ringing now plagues me 24/7, and not a moment goes by where it does not torture my ears and mind.
I can no longer sit in silence or even sleep without this curse. Part of me wants to blame my incel genetics. That my body was always too weak to resist something like this. That at the age of 23, I am cursed with this because of how subhuman my genes are.
But also, deep down, I believe have been afflicted as a divine punishment for my wicked ways. I probably deserve to suffer for what I have done. I will likely walk the rest of my miserable days with this constant drilling and ringing in my brain.
It is also a bit funny that so much has changed for me in my life since I've stopped being here regularly on this site. Me, my profile on here. I've been humiliated repeatedly, even on here. I hang my head in shame, because it too is a punishment for my wretched behavior. But why bother to even change my ways? It's not like life was good before all this nonsense began. Is it really worth it to strip myself of all worldly pleasures just to avoid further divine punishment? Truthfully, I'm not sure where to go or what to do anymore. I now live in a constant state of confusion, distraction, and pain due to the ringing. It drives me insane. I deserve this.
I can no longer sit in silence or even sleep without this curse. Part of me wants to blame my incel genetics. That my body was always too weak to resist something like this. That at the age of 23, I am cursed with this because of how subhuman my genes are.
But also, deep down, I believe have been afflicted as a divine punishment for my wicked ways. I probably deserve to suffer for what I have done. I will likely walk the rest of my miserable days with this constant drilling and ringing in my brain.
It is also a bit funny that so much has changed for me in my life since I've stopped being here regularly on this site. Me, my profile on here. I've been humiliated repeatedly, even on here. I hang my head in shame, because it too is a punishment for my wretched behavior. But why bother to even change my ways? It's not like life was good before all this nonsense began. Is it really worth it to strip myself of all worldly pleasures just to avoid further divine punishment? Truthfully, I'm not sure where to go or what to do anymore. I now live in a constant state of confusion, distraction, and pain due to the ringing. It drives me insane. I deserve this.