Twist of cain
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I have spent countless hours online looking into black pill and looks based information over the last probably 5 to 7 years, after I realized that my appearance was actually the problem for my lack of female attention and success around the time I had the misfortune of discovering the poisonous Jewish app tinder designed for excellerating the destabilization of the white dating market.
Although tinder has utterly crippled my self worth by telling me that I'm not good enough for my own race and that most men arnt seen as good enough it was another app that was the final nail in the coffin for me giving up.
Swiping my whole country and thousands from other countries and getting nothing, then trying it again and actually getting matches but bad ones made me feel even worse than before. Im a white guy but seemed to be a magnet for trannies, only being able to match with whites if they were well over 30 despite me only being 24 when I first signed up to the app, or realizing that white females will only match with you if they're blubberely disadvantaged (fat/obese) or trannies. Otherwise I would only match with other races but I don't want to be some kind of race trophy and I strongly don't believe in mixing. I see it as a biological failure if you can't get someone of your own race, who you were made for..
Anyway this tinder experience over several years killed my self esteem and assured me that all females act the same basically and have the same preferences and strategies. This cut deep.
Real life I was always invisible in bars and public places, with the exception of scowls and laughs mostly at traffic lights with the odd strange look.
I met a girl who was friendly towards me recently during lockdown. I couldnt believe it. I found her attractive and she was actually interested in speaking to me. I felt like it was just so.. well unexpected. We were in lockdown in the same building area for about 3 weeks then she moved out, we had got close before then. It took a couple weeks but I managed to hang out with her again for a little while one night and she even rang me up a couple days after and we had an ok conversation.
I then tried to arrange catching up on a sunny day but instead of more positivity like I expected, I got called toxic for apparently caring, she was so angry and nasty to be. Basically made out that I was weird and almost like a danger or something for apparently asking questions and giving a shit about her. Then she proceeded to speak my words I said back at me like a child would, in a mocking tone.
This female came from a drug criminal scumfuck background had a violent cheating abusive ex who trashed her car and belongings and then treats the one guy who wants to help her like garbage and pushed him away after what seemed to be a developing friendship. Called me a names and claimed she didn't even know me all cause I wanted to hangout after wed been making progress.
One bitch I finally get close to fucks me over. Now I feel even more lonely, still celibate and feel even worse about females and their retarded logic.
Watching this video here made me really realize what I always thought about. They don't want a decent guy. They'd rather have some cracked out abusive drug pusher whose tall than a guy who would treat them well and try help them. I'm done trying.
Obviously I'm too old to want to use that stupid tik tok app. But I watch alot of YouTube and this made me realize it's worse than I thought. These females aren't just abyssal people. They're actually proud of it. If any guys want to still try they'd be better off going to a country that hasn't been poisoned like the western ones have.
How's this for a black pill. Absolutely disgusting creatures.
View: https://youtu.be/hQXzLAemO4U
Anyway this will be my last post here that I plan.
I'm giving up wasting my mind up thinking about getting a decent female. I'm done wageslaving quitting my job in December, going to travel the country. Then buy a new Harley and travel overseas. Study my art to try and work from home to do tattooing like I was before. My autoimmune disease might screw me over but I plan on doing all I can in life to get enjoyment where I can. Travel sightseeing and food, games etc, driving.. learning stuff. I have to dump the dream of a partner. But I will chase every but of hobby related happyness I can until my body fucks out. Which is better than sleeping all day. I'm not only done with thinking about females. I'm done with being societies bitch. I'm not going to wage slave and the only work I want to do I plan on doing from home with no shit boss to disrespect me.
I know with how things are in society especially in western countries most of you will have slim chance of finding someone, and even harder to find someone good as even the guys who can get dates complain about not being able to find quality people, but I hope you can at least find some peace in life. Carrying my hate and frustration around for years took it's toll on my mental health something shocking.
I'm going to stay away from Instagram, fagbook YouTube. Image search.. every thing that is a reminder of the female form. I want to only seek the good in life that doesn't involve people.
I think I'm officially convinced that even if I could get a female, they are such horrible people that it wouldn't even be really worth it besides getting to experience a bang. I wouldn't want to have anything to do with them as people after seeing how they are.
See you all later
-RDS
Although tinder has utterly crippled my self worth by telling me that I'm not good enough for my own race and that most men arnt seen as good enough it was another app that was the final nail in the coffin for me giving up.
Swiping my whole country and thousands from other countries and getting nothing, then trying it again and actually getting matches but bad ones made me feel even worse than before. Im a white guy but seemed to be a magnet for trannies, only being able to match with whites if they were well over 30 despite me only being 24 when I first signed up to the app, or realizing that white females will only match with you if they're blubberely disadvantaged (fat/obese) or trannies. Otherwise I would only match with other races but I don't want to be some kind of race trophy and I strongly don't believe in mixing. I see it as a biological failure if you can't get someone of your own race, who you were made for..
Anyway this tinder experience over several years killed my self esteem and assured me that all females act the same basically and have the same preferences and strategies. This cut deep.
Real life I was always invisible in bars and public places, with the exception of scowls and laughs mostly at traffic lights with the odd strange look.
I met a girl who was friendly towards me recently during lockdown. I couldnt believe it. I found her attractive and she was actually interested in speaking to me. I felt like it was just so.. well unexpected. We were in lockdown in the same building area for about 3 weeks then she moved out, we had got close before then. It took a couple weeks but I managed to hang out with her again for a little while one night and she even rang me up a couple days after and we had an ok conversation.
I then tried to arrange catching up on a sunny day but instead of more positivity like I expected, I got called toxic for apparently caring, she was so angry and nasty to be. Basically made out that I was weird and almost like a danger or something for apparently asking questions and giving a shit about her. Then she proceeded to speak my words I said back at me like a child would, in a mocking tone.
This female came from a drug criminal scumfuck background had a violent cheating abusive ex who trashed her car and belongings and then treats the one guy who wants to help her like garbage and pushed him away after what seemed to be a developing friendship. Called me a names and claimed she didn't even know me all cause I wanted to hangout after wed been making progress.
One bitch I finally get close to fucks me over. Now I feel even more lonely, still celibate and feel even worse about females and their retarded logic.
Watching this video here made me really realize what I always thought about. They don't want a decent guy. They'd rather have some cracked out abusive drug pusher whose tall than a guy who would treat them well and try help them. I'm done trying.
Obviously I'm too old to want to use that stupid tik tok app. But I watch alot of YouTube and this made me realize it's worse than I thought. These females aren't just abyssal people. They're actually proud of it. If any guys want to still try they'd be better off going to a country that hasn't been poisoned like the western ones have.
How's this for a black pill. Absolutely disgusting creatures.
View: https://youtu.be/hQXzLAemO4U
Anyway this will be my last post here that I plan.
I'm giving up wasting my mind up thinking about getting a decent female. I'm done wageslaving quitting my job in December, going to travel the country. Then buy a new Harley and travel overseas. Study my art to try and work from home to do tattooing like I was before. My autoimmune disease might screw me over but I plan on doing all I can in life to get enjoyment where I can. Travel sightseeing and food, games etc, driving.. learning stuff. I have to dump the dream of a partner. But I will chase every but of hobby related happyness I can until my body fucks out. Which is better than sleeping all day. I'm not only done with thinking about females. I'm done with being societies bitch. I'm not going to wage slave and the only work I want to do I plan on doing from home with no shit boss to disrespect me.
I know with how things are in society especially in western countries most of you will have slim chance of finding someone, and even harder to find someone good as even the guys who can get dates complain about not being able to find quality people, but I hope you can at least find some peace in life. Carrying my hate and frustration around for years took it's toll on my mental health something shocking.
I'm going to stay away from Instagram, fagbook YouTube. Image search.. every thing that is a reminder of the female form. I want to only seek the good in life that doesn't involve people.
I think I'm officially convinced that even if I could get a female, they are such horrible people that it wouldn't even be really worth it besides getting to experience a bang. I wouldn't want to have anything to do with them as people after seeing how they are.
See you all later
-RDS