It's Over Thoughts of suicide

[Spice]

Im currently feeling the most indescribable sadness i've ever felt, only having thoughts of wanting to kill myself all day because knowing how my life is so shit with everything that happened to me, the amount of stress i caused towards my family because i couldn't uphold to certain things that i ''promised'' all because of things outside of my control, due to these disabilities that impact my day to day life and all the things that im doing to myself that are harmful

And knowing my experience because im so ugly and it gives people way to easily disrespect me, imagine waking up everyday to hating your body because its just so disgusting to look at, that's how i feel and of course how others around you feel having to look at you, you are a joke to them, they despise you behind your back, will talk shit about you and passively aggressively make jokes about u

Only reason why i haven't committed suicide yet is because of my mom because i can't imagine the pain that it would cause her, its probably the worst thing you can impose to another person and i just can't think about it because it just breaks my heart and its only someone i have that cares about me

Its a really hopeless situation

 

[Xul]

 

[Icarus]

I'm sorry brocel

I know what you mean. Some days it feels almost impossible to do anything.

Me and my families relationship is fried as well. They have all of these expectations for me. But no matter how hard I try it's never good enough.

Don't blame yourself.

 

[Spice]

I'm sorry brocel

I know what you mean. Some days it feels almost impossible to do anything.

Me and my families relationship is fried as well. They have all of these expectations for me. But no matter how hard I try it's never good enough.

Don't blame yourself.

What i find amusing is how i find tasks impossible to do because physically i should be able to do them but i can't bring myself to do whatever, maybe its due to my untreated ADHD which has caused me issues in the past with the tasks and focus but at this point the issue is much deeper than that

 

[Icarus]

What i find amusing is how i find tasks impossible to do because physically i should be able to do them but i can't bring myself to do whatever, maybe its due to my untreated ADHD which has caused me issues in the past with the tasks and focus but at the same time it just started to become worse recently

It's because you lack the motivation to do those things. If you were still bluepilled and believed in the system then you would have a reason to get up in the morning.

 

[Spice]

It's because you lack the motivation to do those things. If you were still bluepilled and believed in the system then you would have a reason to get up in the morning.

I guess so but the big impact ADHD has on your motivation, it very much so makes it impossible to do tasks unless you aren't tweaked out on stimulants 24/7 which is why stimulants are used to help ADHD

I was thinking of using crystal meth at one point because of how bad it has gotten and these stimulant medications are hard to get due to shortages and waiting times, also very expensive if u are paying private

ADHD isn't my main issue however, i have more things wrong with me than just that

 

[Icarus]

I guess so but the big impact ADHD has on your motivation, it very much so makes it impossible to do tasks unless you aren't tweaked out on stimulants 24/7 which is why stimulants are used to help ADHD

I was thinking of using crystal meth at one point because of how bad it has gotten and these stimulant medications are hard to get due to shortages and waiting times, also very expensive if u are paying private

ADHD isn't my main issue however, i have more things wrong with me than just that

 

[dud]

Im currently feeling the most indescribable sadness i've ever felt, only having thoughts of wanting to kill myself all day because knowing how my life is so shit with everything that happened to me, the amount of stress i caused towards my family because i couldn't uphold to certain things that i ''promised'' all because of things outside of my control, due to these disabilities that impact my day to day life and all the things that im doing to myself that are harmful

And knowing my experience because im so ugly and it gives people way to easily disrespect me, imagine waking up everyday to hating your body because its just so disgusting to look at, that's how i feel and of course how others around you feel having to look at you, you are a joke to them, they despise you behind your back, will talk shit about you and passively aggressively make jokes about u

Only reason why i haven't committed suicide yet is because of my mom because i can't imagine the pain that it would cause her, its probably the worst thing you can impose to another person and i just can't think about it because it just breaks my heart and its only someone i have that cares about me

Its a really hopeless situation

It's never over; remember that

 

[DoomThreeKoala]

Brutal

 

[poorenglishcel]

 

[PolarIce20]

sorry man

 

[recessed]

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[Runt171]

It's never over; remember that

Greycel​

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[Justanotherbloke]

Don't blame yoyourself.

This



It's the systems fault

 

[hapakatt]

You need therapy
Don't be so negative
Be grateful for what you have
Don't be so mean
Just smile more
Go make some friends
Get a hobby
Put yourself out there
Sex isn't everything
It's just your mindset, it's all in your head
It will get better