Serious This year has been the hardest most soul crushing experience of my life

[Icarus]

To put it bluntly I don't know why I haven't already ended things.

I think about it every day.

I have nothing to live for. Everything feels impossible to do. I don't have the energy to pretend to be okay.

I don't see myself making it much longer. I predict within the next 2 to 3 years I'll be dead (if I can somehow make it that long).

I feel hurt and betrayed. I was lied to all my life.

This forum is the only thing I look forward to, but I just can't keep living like this much longer.

I feel like I have been here for centuries. The pain is just too much. I'm locked inside of a literal prison, and I just want to leave.

I feel things so deeply that I've reached a point where all of my energy is so low and so negative that it upsets the people around me with just my presence.

Forget getting a job. I can't even force myself to take a shower or brush my teeth. I wear the same clothes every day.

I have food stacked under my bed because I physically can't clean up any of it.

I'm literally dying guys. And it hurts.

I wish someone would just put me out of my misery. I've had enough of this life. I'm ready to leave. I just want to die.

I've started smoking again. Hopefully that will kill me. I just need a way out. I'm so fucking tired of this man. I've seriously had it up to here. I'm so fucking angry and annoyed and frustrated and sad and miserable.

I can guarantee that I am among one of the most miserable bastards to be living right now. It is literally unbearable.

Not even these cry for help posts do anything, nothing makes me feel better.

Somebody please tell me how I can push through this.

 

[zd60]

quite the same for me man its been all i've known my whole life just rotting and waiting for death i've never taken care of anything. i feel like i've been around since the birth of the universe in a endless prison being tortured daily. i hope within the next few years health complications kill me i've lived in misery and hell forever. everyday is physically and mentally painful not even the constant drugs i do keeps me distracted anymore

 

[Deleted Member 8090]

I haven't gotten that bad so I cannot tell you anything you wouldn't scoff at. I'm going to assume you are not actually physically disabled and simply unhealthy.

I'm not sure if you really want an escape from your lifestyle considering there is no wife foid at the end of the road, but to get healthier you probably already know the obvious:
-stop smoking shit
-start by cleaning your room, probably under your bed first. Use gloves and a mask if you have to.
-start working out. When I started it was just pushups and shit, but you will eventually want to get more advanced and lift weights. (It's not hard to get stronger if you do it right)


I don't think that's the answer you're looking for though. Most men are only motivated to do this for a chance at pussy because they are higher already in looks. Otherwise just try to save up and get a sex doll, ai gf, and whatever other copes you need.

 

[Icarus]

quite the same for me man its been all i've known my whole life just rotting and waiting for death i've never taken care of anything. i feel like i've been around since the birth of the universe in a endless prison being tortured daily. i hope within the next few years health complications kill me i've lived in misery and hell forever. everyday is physically and mentally painful not even the constant drugs i do keeps me distracted anymore

fuck man

It just never ends.

I just lose the words to even say anything.

 

[Icarus]

I haven't gotten that bad so I cannot tell you anything you wouldn't scoff at. I'm going to assume you are not actually physically disabled and simply unhealthy.

I'm not sure if you really want an escape from your lifestyle considering there is no wife foid at the end of the road, but to get healthier you probably already know the obvious:
-stop smoking shit
-start by cleaning your room, probably under your bed first. Use gloves and a mask if you have to.
-start working out. When I started it was just pushups and shit, but you will eventually want to get more advanced and lift weights. (It's not hard to get stronger if you do it right)


I don't think that's the answer you're looking for though. Most men are only motivated to do this for a chance at pussy because they are higher already in looks. Otherwise just try to save up and get a sex doll, ai gf, and whatever other copes you need.

Thank you for the advice. I guess I'm just ranting.

I know what I need to do to be healthier and better off, but I just can't do it.

I've been neeting for a year now, and I just can't ever pretend to be normal anymore.

 

[zd60]

fuck man

It just never ends.

I just lose the words to even say anything.

same i don't even know anymore i just drift and wander everyday until i pass out the pain i experience daily is too exhausting to even think

 

[Icarus]

same i don't even know anymore i just drift and wander everyday until i pass out the pain i experience daily is too exhausting to even think

Thank you for being there to talk to brocel. I'm sorry we are both in a similar position.

If it was up to me I wish I could take all the pain away. I wish I was god so I could fix this.

I'm tired of everyone hurting

 

[zd60]

Thank you for being there to talk to brocel. I'm sorry we are both in a similar position.

If it was up to me I wish I could take all the pain away. I wish I was god so I could fix this.

I'm tired of everyone hurting

Thank you brocel, i wish I could do the same this world has too much suffering in it and we are the ones dealing with it the most. at least death is a guarantee and we'll all get to have some peace then

 

[Icarus]

Thank you brocel, i wish I could do the same this world has too much suffering in it and we are the ones dealing with it the most. at least death is a guarantee and we'll all get to have some peace then

True

 

[Cuckoja]

SAme man, even when i feel glimpse of happiness im so afraid that i will get the rug pulled under my feet. I cried so many times this year. Im so afraid to end up all alone with no one to talk to, no one who cares.

 

[Icarus]

SAme man, even when i feel glimpse of happiness im so afraid that i will get the rug pulled under my feet. I cried so many times this year. Im so afraid to end up all alone with no one to talk to, no one who cares.

I hope this forum stays around for a long time. You guys are my greatest friends.

 

[Cuckoja]

You guys are my greatest friends.

Thanks brocel, same.

 

[Icarus]

Thanks brocel, same.

I understand what you mean by the rug pull. I've legit had that happen so many times in my life when I genuinely thought things were gonna turn around and get better, only for them to get 10x worse later on down the line.

It's to the point to where I can predict when something bad will happen before it even does kek

 

[superpsycho]

same, im just waiting for my body to give out at this point.

i have no future and i am in pain both mentally and physically every day.

 

[Runt171]

I don't see myself making it much longer. I predict within the next 2 to 3 years I'll be dead (if I can somehow make it that long).

Same

 

[Runt171]

I feel things so deeply that I've reached a point where all of my energy is so low and so negative that it upsets the people around me with just my presence

Normies always say you need aura
Now you have it

 

[Icarus]

Normies always say you need aura
Now you have it

the dark triad aura of a chud

 

[Runt171]

I've started smoking again. Hopefully that will kill me. I just need a way out.

I wanted to start smoking again just to try and destress but my asthma has worsened in the last few years

I will probably smoke sometimes though but thats just another thing Ive been cut off from in life
While everyone can cope with a nice ciggy I have to wheeze and rot without one

 

[Icarus]

I wanted to start smoking again just to try and destress but my asthma has worsened in the last few years

I will probably smoke sometimes though but thats just another thing Ive been cut off from in life
While everyone can cope with a nice ciggy I have to wheeze and rot without one

 

[Runt171]

Somebody please tell me how I can push through this.

Thats the thing we kind of cant

Its good enough genes or bust in this world

 

[Icarus]

Thats the thing we kind of cant

Its good enough genes or bust in this world

it's over

 

[Runt171]

At this point Im just trying to go kamikaze mode and start trying all these different things to make some attempt of escaping the life Im in now
Try and live with some level of lower inhib probably start abusing alcohol more to push myself into things

Realistically I know this is probably it for me but I would rather try this other shit then keep rotting in this boring hellish limbo any longer
Worst comes to worst I can kill myself which Is what I would probably end up doing anyway

Its crazy its come to this point and other people just get to live with no effort
What a fucking life man

 

[Icarus]

At this point Im just trying to go kamikaze mode and start trying all these different things to make some attempt of escaping the life Im in now
Try and live with some level of lower inhib probably start abusing alcohol more to push myself into things

Realistically I know this is probably it for me but I would rather try this other shit then keep rotting in this boring hellish limbo any longer
Worst comes to worst I can kill myself which Is what I would probably end up doing anyway

Its crazy its come to this point and other people just get to live with no effort
What a fucking life man

Relatable, and indeed

 

[Runt171]

Idk your situation fully but maybe you could try something similar

 

[Runt171]

Now I feel like one of those npcs trying to give the “life helping “ dialogue

I get closer to NT maxxing everyday

 

[Icarus]

Idk your situation fully but maybe you could try something similar

I might tbh

I'll eventually try losing some weight though too so I can wagecuck in the future

Now I feel like one of those npcs trying to give the “life helping “ dialogue

I get closer to NT maxxing everyday

kek

 

[Cuckoja]

I understand what you mean by the rug pull. I've legit had that happen so many times in my life when I genuinely thought things were gonna turn around and get better, only for them to get 10x worse later on down the line.

It's to the point to where I can predict when something bad will happen before it even does kek

Same, i get this churning feeling in my guts that something is wrong, im afraid that im imagining things and that i will self sabotage