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I went to two different schools for elementary & middle school (up to 15yo in my country) and high school (16-18yo).
I'm legit putting myself at a doxxxing risk for sharing this, but I feel it's worth it, both to vent and because many incels may relate. Also, tbf there's an extremely small chance that anyone involved will read this, if they even remember.
Ok so basically, at elementary school, I was bullied for my height since like 10 years old or even less. Not only because of my height but because I was insecure as fuck. My own parents bullied me at home all my life, while other people had good parents and healthy childhoods, so I was the obvious target in the class. Some teachers despised me too, because they didn't understand why I was so insecure and didn't relate to me, but did relate to my bullies who were the "cool kids", and it showed. Some were very blatant about how they despised me, pretended not to notice me crying etc.
My approach to this was to just turbocope. Vidya, books... were my biggest copes, and when I wasnt doing it, I was thinking about it to evade myself. I also kept quiet and just took all the shit they would throw at me (both parents, teachers and classmates) to avoid making it worse. At this point I was like 10 years old, so the bullying was at a "sustainable" level, the worst was yet to come.
Shit hit the fan during early middle school ages. They were the worst years of my life I'd say, though my whole life sucks. The bullying got violent, more severe... And ofc my parents didn't give a shit or used it against me (told me I was bullied for being a pussy and shit), and some teachers cared a bit tbh but didn't do much. So, like before, I just vidyacoped harder. I had no idea what to do, no support at all, no one in my life who didn't hate me, and no proper parents raising me.
At high school, it was pretty much the same except the bullying there was a little more covert. They just laughed at me, and my social skills were so bad, that at first I didn't realize. I only had one friend that didn't relate to me at all, and seemed to low key believe I deserved the bullying or something. But at least I wasn't completely alone. I was also taken to the psychologists office, where she told me to "just be yourself bro" and that's it jfl. At this point I didn't care that much anymore, never cried, and was extremely involved with vidya coping. Though sometimes they mocked me very blatantly and humiliatingly, like I'd say something awkwardly because my social skills were horrible, and a group of people would laugh at me out loud in a really demeaning way.
At some point, the bullying kinda died down because I didn't really react so didn't give them much to pick on me for, so I basically just did my thing and talked to my "friend" about my struggles socializing and with girls, and he didn't really relate but whatever. The bullying from my parents was also sort of dying down as well, because with age I got a bit higher T (not much due to the constant stress though, I'm probably low T tbh) and started fighting back a bit. So things were relatively calm. Except, behind my back, a foid teacher had been calling each and every one of my classmates into her office to ask them why they aren't hanging out with me and don't want to be my friends. I noticed something awkward and kinda knew, but didn't think she'd be so retarded as to single me out like that, while trying to "help". She also ranted me about not being my bullies' friend, like teachers do to most bullied kids I guess. My sister was bullied at school too and teachers did kinda the same to her.
After this things got slowly better in my life, I went to uni where I wasn't bullied, afterwards I left my parents house and since then the biggest problem in my life was gone, bc they had always been extremely bad parents and way tougher than any school bully, and from there I started building up confidence and social skills, but have never gotten a girlfriend, bc that depends on genetics and looks so it's the one thing I may never be able to "fix" about my life, so to speak. I really need a life partner right now, but.. chad only.
I'm legit putting myself at a doxxxing risk for sharing this, but I feel it's worth it, both to vent and because many incels may relate. Also, tbf there's an extremely small chance that anyone involved will read this, if they even remember.
Ok so basically, at elementary school, I was bullied for my height since like 10 years old or even less. Not only because of my height but because I was insecure as fuck. My own parents bullied me at home all my life, while other people had good parents and healthy childhoods, so I was the obvious target in the class. Some teachers despised me too, because they didn't understand why I was so insecure and didn't relate to me, but did relate to my bullies who were the "cool kids", and it showed. Some were very blatant about how they despised me, pretended not to notice me crying etc.
My approach to this was to just turbocope. Vidya, books... were my biggest copes, and when I wasnt doing it, I was thinking about it to evade myself. I also kept quiet and just took all the shit they would throw at me (both parents, teachers and classmates) to avoid making it worse. At this point I was like 10 years old, so the bullying was at a "sustainable" level, the worst was yet to come.
Shit hit the fan during early middle school ages. They were the worst years of my life I'd say, though my whole life sucks. The bullying got violent, more severe... And ofc my parents didn't give a shit or used it against me (told me I was bullied for being a pussy and shit), and some teachers cared a bit tbh but didn't do much. So, like before, I just vidyacoped harder. I had no idea what to do, no support at all, no one in my life who didn't hate me, and no proper parents raising me.
At high school, it was pretty much the same except the bullying there was a little more covert. They just laughed at me, and my social skills were so bad, that at first I didn't realize. I only had one friend that didn't relate to me at all, and seemed to low key believe I deserved the bullying or something. But at least I wasn't completely alone. I was also taken to the psychologists office, where she told me to "just be yourself bro" and that's it jfl. At this point I didn't care that much anymore, never cried, and was extremely involved with vidya coping. Though sometimes they mocked me very blatantly and humiliatingly, like I'd say something awkwardly because my social skills were horrible, and a group of people would laugh at me out loud in a really demeaning way.
At some point, the bullying kinda died down because I didn't really react so didn't give them much to pick on me for, so I basically just did my thing and talked to my "friend" about my struggles socializing and with girls, and he didn't really relate but whatever. The bullying from my parents was also sort of dying down as well, because with age I got a bit higher T (not much due to the constant stress though, I'm probably low T tbh) and started fighting back a bit. So things were relatively calm. Except, behind my back, a foid teacher had been calling each and every one of my classmates into her office to ask them why they aren't hanging out with me and don't want to be my friends. I noticed something awkward and kinda knew, but didn't think she'd be so retarded as to single me out like that, while trying to "help". She also ranted me about not being my bullies' friend, like teachers do to most bullied kids I guess. My sister was bullied at school too and teachers did kinda the same to her.
After this things got slowly better in my life, I went to uni where I wasn't bullied, afterwards I left my parents house and since then the biggest problem in my life was gone, bc they had always been extremely bad parents and way tougher than any school bully, and from there I started building up confidence and social skills, but have never gotten a girlfriend, bc that depends on genetics and looks so it's the one thing I may never be able to "fix" about my life, so to speak. I really need a life partner right now, but.. chad only.
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