I can't possibly know exactly how bad things were from you in comparison to me, and not trying to say I'm superior or stronger, but I've also been called ugly, rejected, bullied, etc, throughout school and never had women show any romantic or sexual interest in me outside of odd situations where I'm not sure to this day whether it was some kind of irony/prank try, etc (also those few situations were years and years ago and with women below my looksmatch level, which makes everything even more cryptic).
But I've decided to go for the "trying to approach" route some years ago. I've already pretty much given up that nowadays, but as a 3+ guy, I felt it was worth a try even though approaching women absolutely sucks. The "game" is not fun at all to play, unlike PUAs preach.
It's like I said on another thread. You have to carefully evaluate your situation and options. What's your rating, being the most objective possible? If sub3, yeah, approaching is definitely not worth it. But if 3-5, in my opinion, you are in an odd range where results are possible, but so inconsistent, rare, meager and effort-dependent that it's really a good question whether it's worth it putting all the work, specially if you're emotionally traumatized and jaded like you mentioned.
The thing is, your options as an incel-tier man are few and all of them suck. Giving up is painful and frustrating. Resigning yourself to cuckoldry is humiliating, frustrating and to be fair not even an option for some guys depending on how ugly and poor they are. Approaching absolutely sucks and it's rage-inducing, I can see how it can even be dangerous to a guy who's really already fed up with foid's bullshit. Looksmaxxing is an option for guys who have money or prospects of it and whose looks are not that bad (hopes of reaching at least 6 after the looksmaxx), or to guys who are ugly only because of details that are fairly fixable through surgery like strange years or nose. Rape, acid face and ER will provide extreme satisfaction in the short run but will also completely ruin your life with almost absolute certainty.
Resigning to prostitutes is the path I chose recently, but it's also frustrating and depressing, not gonna lie. I remember fucking a 2/10 favelada prostitute for about 20 dollars and going back home on a bus, sitting next to a teenager, white, brown hair, brown eyes, who was not extremely beautiful or anything but was absolutely my type. She was definitely above my looksmatch level now but really close to my young self's looksmatch. Filled me with guilt and regret about not trying harder when I was myself a teenager and better-looking. This kind of shit is not a happy and satisfying experience by any stretch of the imagination, but I was just desperate for sex and female contact on that fateful night.
