I'm almost to graduate and realized that how my school life passed with suffers and flaws. If there would be a better future includes a job with high prices or someting, I would feel less pain, but there aren't any source of optimism. I discerned that I was being trapped by my looking, passtime choices and underdevelopd social skills.
There is a endless circle arised from a simple things I couldn't notice how they would ruin my the most beautiful and free years within concernings and hopelessness. Because of having some communication problems, I had never wide circle of friends. Yes, I had friends but none of them weren't my close friends who continue to talking or meeting outside of the school. As a result still I haven't any friend from primary or secondary school.
To tap if of all I took the road of being politics freak guy who was talking about boring and unattractive topics such as politics, history etc. In addition all of these I had serious looking disadvantages like as unattractive nose in the simplest example.
In the end I was alone at an age that everyone -especially girls- found partner and gained experience about every stage of relationships and finally I've reached to university as an incel and I accept that the circle won't be broken: When you moved away from relationship and friendship normals, no one cares you-Everyone makes friendship or/and dating and learns fine details about these topics and gets experience-Then you tried to rejoin to the circle but you are determined by "relationship" experts and branded as "looser" etc and return to begginig.
I know that my free and carefree ages got out from my hands and I will never experience it: I will start a job with low wages and status and only find cumbuckets who spended their times with chads and even this situation I will be branded as looser or freak or something else.
In brief: Checkmate.
There is a endless circle arised from a simple things I couldn't notice how they would ruin my the most beautiful and free years within concernings and hopelessness. Because of having some communication problems, I had never wide circle of friends. Yes, I had friends but none of them weren't my close friends who continue to talking or meeting outside of the school. As a result still I haven't any friend from primary or secondary school.
To tap if of all I took the road of being politics freak guy who was talking about boring and unattractive topics such as politics, history etc. In addition all of these I had serious looking disadvantages like as unattractive nose in the simplest example.
In the end I was alone at an age that everyone -especially girls- found partner and gained experience about every stage of relationships and finally I've reached to university as an incel and I accept that the circle won't be broken: When you moved away from relationship and friendship normals, no one cares you-Everyone makes friendship or/and dating and learns fine details about these topics and gets experience-Then you tried to rejoin to the circle but you are determined by "relationship" experts and branded as "looser" etc and return to begginig.
I know that my free and carefree ages got out from my hands and I will never experience it: I will start a job with low wages and status and only find cumbuckets who spended their times with chads and even this situation I will be branded as looser or freak or something else.
In brief: Checkmate.
