This haunts me

[dud]

Hello guys.

I'm a self-identified incel living in Somalia. I'm 20 years old, 5'10", around 200 lbs., and pretty socially awkward. I've never been diagnosed with anything, but I've always been the quiet, awkward kid.

I don't want to pretend I'm completely isolated or friendless, I have friends, I'm currently in university, and I'm doing well academically. On paper, my life is going fine.

The thing is, I'm also 20 years old and I've never had a girlfriend, never been on a date, and I've never even made a dating app profile. Until recently, that didn't bother me much. Then it suddenly hit me that I probably won't be KHHV forever not because I'm likely to start dating, but because arranged marriages are still pretty common where I live.

And honestly, that's what bothers me.

Whenever I think about eventually ending up in an arranged marriage, I feel terrible. It's hard to explain, but it feels like a blow to my sense of self. I struggle to imagine myself being comfortable in a relationship that came about that way. Maybe that's irrational, maybe it isn't, but the thought has been weighing on me.

I don't want to call myself a genetic failure, but it is evident that both my parents are 6ft+ and I'm stuck at 5ft10, It's also hard not to compare myself to my older siblings. Both of them were already married by my age. They were also over 6'2", while I somehow ended up at 5'10"

I don't know if I'm looking for advice or just venting. I just wanted to put this somewhere. More than anything, I hate the feeling that I might eventually have to rely on an arranged marriage just to experience being loved.

 

[Chirag gupta]

Be grateful that you at least have a chance at being in a relationship

99.9% of cels here would kill to be in an arranged relationship

 

[AutistSupremacist]

Be grateful that you at least have a chance at being in a relationship

 

[Passion]

eventually ending up in an arranged marriage

So you might be in heaven compared to 99% of the long term userbase

 

[EndraCel0]

Be grateful that you at least have a chance at being in a relationship

99.9% of cels here would kill to be in an arranged relationship

arranged relationships are mega cope and all trash, I wouldn"t do that

 

[Luganki]

living in Somalia

Shit man, at that point I'd be more worried about some sub-60iq ogre Nigger gunning me down in the street because he wanted some target practice

 

[enclavecel]

living in Somalia

Aren't they Muslim? Your situation has the chance to be better than most honestly. The way they treat women can be quite advantageous to you, lower chance of cheating and the problems you get with regular western foids.

 

[dud]

Aren't they Muslim? Your situation has the chance to be better than most honestly. The way they treat women can be quite advantageous to you, lower chance of cheating and the problems you get with regular western foids.

Sadly, The treatment of women here is surprisingly good at least where I live in the capital.

 

[dud]

Shit man, at that point I'd be more worried about some sub-60iq ogre Nigger gunning me down in the street because he wanted some target practice

i needn't worry, I generally don't go out unless it's for classes or every now and then to hang out with my friends.

 

[RuudVanNistelrooy]

If your arranged marriage isn't to some landwhale you have no right to complain? Did you ever approached a girl at uni?

 

[dud]

If your arranged marriage isn't to some landwhale you have no right to complain? Did you ever approached a girl at uni?

it's pretty unlikely, and I've never approached a girl in my life, either at uni or outside of it or even online

 

[UndeadDeadMan]

I don't want to call myself a genetic failure, but it is evident that both my parents are 6ft+ and I'm stuck at 5ft10

This is fucking cursed though. How many years were you born after the next youngest sibliing?

The reason I'm asking is my mum had me a whopping SEVEN YEARS after my older brother. In addition to smoking habits and whatnot. I notice that compared to my older brother I am at looks (not height though) disadvantage. We may or may not have common health problems, which is something we're researching at the moment.

 

[RuudVanNistelrooy]

and I've never approached a girl in my life, either at uni or outside of it or even online

You have to try, at least you will know where you are standing.

 

[GigaL0ser]

living in Somalia

My condolences

 

[dud]

This is fucking cursed though. How many years were you born after the next youngest sibliing?

The reason I'm asking is my mum had me a whopping SEVEN YEARS after my older brother. In addition to smoking habits and whatnot. I notice that compared to my older brother I am at looks (not height though) disadvantage. We may or may not have common health problems, which is something we're researching at the moment.

Coincidentally the sibling closest to me in age is 7 years older than I am so maybe that explains it.

 

[dud]

My condolences

This is fucking cursed though. How many years were you born after the next youngest sibliing?

The reason I'm asking is my mum had me a whopping SEVEN YEARS after my older brother. In addition to smoking habits and whatnot. I notice that compared to my older brother I am at looks (not height though) disadvantage. We may or may not have common health problems, which is something we're researching at the moment.

It's also worth noting that I'm the only one of my five siblings who was born and raised in Somalia.

 

[UndeadDeadMan]

It's also worth noting that I'm the only one of my five siblings who was born and raised in Somalia.

Yep life conditions matter a lot too with these things