Anyone else can't fake it anymore?

[INVERTER]

Whenever I'm in public I can't smile or do that fake friendly voice anymore. If someone talks to me I usually just blow right past them. I hate normalfags and their fake ways so much. The idea of having a conversation feels like energy I don't have when I know the other party is just gonna judge me for shit I can't control anyway. A lifetime of being treated like shit made me this way. I'm not even angry I just feel nothing. Emotions just aren't there. I feel like an 80 year old man and I haven't even turned 30 yet. The idea of someone liking me in any capacity seems so foreign

 

[anon65]

I am always like that except for at my job. I can't get fired, so I need to be pretend happy. fml

 

[INVERTER]

I am always like that except for at my job. I can't get fired, so I need to be pretend happy. fml

Thankfully I work in a blue collar trade

 

[TellMomImGone]

Im younger than you guys, but sometimes I can relate to the fact that I feel that way. I hate interacting with foids not because of the social tension but because of the afterwards, I feel so drained and foids make me feel like shit, I just try to be formal and avoid them. When meeting new people im my trueself so I can stop pretending to be someone im not (likeable).

 

[anon65]

Im younger than you guys, but sometimes I can relate to the fact that I feel that way. I hate interacting with foids not because of the social tension but because of the afterwards, I feel so drained and foids make me feel like shit, I just try to be formal and avoid them. When meeting new people im my trueself so I can stop pretending to be someone im not (likeable).

Life only gets worse with age. Try to enjoy every moment before you wake up one day old and exhausted.

 

[tired as fuck]

Life only gets worse with age. Try to enjoy every moment before you wake up one day old and exhausted.

very hard to do that when your earlier years were pretty much hell. I turned 21 a few days ago and it was the worst day of my life. All the memories of my childhood and teenage years came back at once, and I really did not want to experience them again. I was a shut-in barring school and forced sports (doctor's evaluation said I needed to practice a team sport because of my antisocial tendencies bruh) which I stopped doing after covid either way. I felt old and exhausted at 14. It is cringe to say and I wish I wasn't joking. Just recently the normies I thought were my friends turned around and backstabbed me, overstepped boundaries I deem not to be trodden. The amount of negative shit that happened in my life is so high, I basically only could surpass it through derealization and dissociation. And dopamine addiction. This "life gets worse with age" thing might be true, but the past shouldn't be brushed off because of that. If people are here and stick around long enough to not be GrAYs anymore, odds are nothing in their life is worth enjoying. water. mine was a pointless reply.

 

[tired as fuck]

Whenever I'm in public I can't smile or do that fake friendly voice anymore. If someone talks to me I usually just blow right past them. I hate normalfags and their fake ways so much. The idea of having a conversation feels like energy I don't have when I know the other party is just gonna judge me for shit I can't control anyway. A lifetime of being treated like shit made me this way. I'm not even angry I just feel nothing. Emotions just aren't there. I feel like an 80 year old man and I haven't even turned 30 yet. The idea of someone liking me in any capacity seems so foreign

I don't know anymore whether I've had enough of the pleasantries and allat shallow shit and want some genuine interaction with people, or I'm constantly checked out and dissociate whenever someone talks to me.

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

Same
Only people I still talk with is with family members and I have to fake smile and pretend interest in their conversations
I'm done with life

 

[Renegade#1]

i don't talk to anyone irl

 

[captchawaffen]

I am always like that except for at my job. I can't get fired, so I need to be pretend happy. fml

 

[TellMomImGone]

Life only gets worse with age. Try to enjoy every moment before you wake up one day old and exhausted.

thats why im planning to rope, but later in life.

 

[Wolnir]

I freeze and can't talk to anybody, I've had this problem ever since I was a child, my mouth goes dry and I can't talk. This shit is brutal to deal with as a man in his mid 20s because at this age, people expect you to at least be well adjusted socially but I've never had the chance of that because I've been isolated for so long due to this condition. I'm stuck in my head all of the time.

 

[cactusjuice]

same, i can’t be around normies when i talk to them i realize how lonely and different i am to them.

 

[lostityearsago]

Whenever I'm in public I can't smile or do that fake friendly voice anymore. If someone talks to me I usually just blow right past them. I hate normalfags and their fake ways so much. The idea of having a conversation feels like energy I don't have when I know the other party is just gonna judge me for shit I can't control anyway. A lifetime of being treated like shit made me this way. I'm not even angry I just feel nothing. Emotions just aren't there. I feel like an 80 year old man and I haven't even turned 30 yet. The idea of someone liking me in any capacity seems so foreign

ion fake it either

 

[INVERTER]

I freeze and can't talk to anybody, I've had this problem ever since I was a child, my mouth goes dry and I can't talk. This shit is brutal to deal with as a man in his mid 20s because at this age, people expect you to at least be well adjusted socially but I've never had the chance of that because I've been isolated for so long due to this condition. I'm stuck in my head all of the time.

Mines less serious I just clam up and my voice is shakey and weak

 

[Clown_prince]

Whenever I'm in public I can't smile or do that fake friendly voice anymore. If someone talks to me I usually just blow right past them. I hate normalfags and their fake ways so much. The idea of having a conversation feels like energy I don't have when I know the other party is just gonna judge me for shit I can't control anyway. A lifetime of being treated like shit made me this way. I'm not even angry I just feel nothing. Emotions just aren't there. I feel like an 80 year old man and I haven't even turned 30 yet. The idea of someone liking me in any capacity seems so foreign

So real sad but true